Days have passed by but our household is still as chaotic as the day my sister left. Phone calls here and phone calls there. An hour won't pass without my mom calling Clea's name. She won't let dad stop looking for Clea. I ran my gaze on my surroundings and I can't help but seek her presence. I never told anything about what we've talked about to anyone. I left without eating breakfast because it will never be the same again. A day without her bitching around me and playing along with mom and dad is just another day of confusion. I waited for a short while before a taxi happens to pass by. "To York University, please." I swallowed the lump in my throat when we passed by Clea's favorite cafe. I looked away and prepared cash when I

Everything and everyone around us has a purpose in our life. They helps us find where we belong. They helps us understand life better. They helps us build our future and ourselves. That's what I believe until now. But at this time, at this exact moment, I don't know what's going on anymore. I don't know what's the purpose of everything that has been happening or the purpose of everyone around me. Are they helping me to find where I belong? Because I honestly think they don't because I feel so lost that I don't even know if I really belong here. They doesn't help me understand life better, instead, they made me think that it's better to be burried six feet under the ground. That life means death while death means living in peace. I can't figure out what I want in the future. I can't

"Oh my God, Athijha," Lily mumbled and helped me to get up. "He's just handsome but I don't like his vibe." "Lily, he's just like that because he's mad at me. I already told you that." I heard her sighed. "Lily, do you mind going back to the mansion alone? I am going somewhere before, you know, get my things at home." "Okay. Just make sure you won't commit suicide or I'll be the one to kill you in another life." Minutes have passed and I'm still standing outside the hall. Staring at the busy street like I have nothing else to do. A loud horn from a truck startled. I tucked my lips in and started walking to a random way. I can't forget the way he looked at me earlier. I can't for

Oh G! I don't want to have those kinds of thoughts. I massaged the bridge of my nose and hissed. I slightly knocked my head on the wall. Cakes. Ice creams. Pizzas. Strawberries. Chocolates. I kept on repeating and picturing the foods I love inside my head while running to school. I don't want to entertain those thoughts. Coffee. Salad. Pasta. I stopped running and he

My jaw dropped when he turned his back. No, no, I did nog ruined the years we spent together as friends, Quel. You did, I just took the risk of being with you and it was you who decided to throw those years."You don't even worth a thing to me, selfish bitch," He said before ascending upstairs.I smiled bitterly. Your words will hunt me forever, Quel. It made my heart bleed a gallon and will leave a huge scar that will be embedded not just in my heart but also in my soul.We just graduated from college today. I almost lost my place in dean's listers because of you, Quel. I did everything I could to fix everything, even if it takes away everything I have or even if I lose myself.I brushed my tears away when my phone rang.