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Chapter 23
Everything and everyone around us has a purpose in our life. They helps us find where we belong. They helps us understand life better. They helps us build our future and ourselves. That's what I believe until now.
But at this time, at this exact moment, I don't know what's going on anymore. I don't know what's the purpose of everything that has been happening or the purpose of everyone around me. Are they helping me to find where I belong? Because I honestly think they don't because I feel so lost that I don't even know if I really belong here.
They doesn't help me understand life better, instead, they made me think that it's better to be burried six feet under the ground. That life means death while death means living in peace.
I can't figure out what I want in the future. I can't
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Irritation filled his eyes. "Stop making that face, bitch," No, don't call me that, darling. I'm okay you calling me by my name, but please, not that. "It makes me wanna puke." He leaned on the sofa. "Just to let you know, because you look clueless, we'll be wedded tomorrow," He stood up and slowly walked towards me. He bent over and leveled our faces. "If you're dreaming of a fairytale-like wedding, stop that, bitch. I'll make sure to ruin your dreams and plans just like how you shattered mine." I gulped. I can feel his breath on my face. He scanned me and slightly slapped my cheeks. He moved away. He turned his back on me and stretched his body. He started cracking his joints. I looked down ans played with my very own fingers. I parted my lips, ready to speak but immediately retre
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I kept on mumbling the same statement over and over again while shaking my head. I stood up and used the wall as support. I took my hoodie and left his condo. I held my chest. My tears are dry now but the pain is still in there. Crawling from my heart to every part of me, slowly eating me alive. I fell on the floor when my knees gave up. It's a good thing I fell on the grasses, if I fell on the rocky or hard ground, my knees would be wounded and that will affect my chosen career. A burst of empty laughter echoed around me. I surrounded my gaze and chose to stay. It looks like an abandoned park but it's not scary at all. I laid on the grass. The moon is so beautiful. My eyes star
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