I'm dressed in a simple fitting dress with a pair of black stilettos and little make-up for this occasion.As I looked in the mirror at the image of my face, I was filled with dread.Why is it that I am so beautiful? What is it about me that makes me feel that no one loves me, that no suitable person is meant for and with me?I was a little rattled before getting to my feet and walking out of my apartment, where I placed my key card in my bag.Every stride I take makes me feel as though I'm sinking more and further. What more would I require in order to be invited to her engagement party?"Why? "What am I doing here with you?" I questioned Gage as I put my cigarette carton into the trash because I had run out of cigarettes before calling Gage.Just get out of here. I'm in the same boat as you. "He's a complete and utter non-entity to you, right?" Then I hung up the phone and disconnected the call.I'm hoping he's nothing more than a bother to me.When the elevator bell rings, I slow d
All my life, I kept running.Throughout my life, I have chosen to be free and let what happens happen. I don’t think about the consequences of every decision I make.As far as I know, I did what I wanted, and I was happy with what I did. I don't care if I get hurt.I don't care about everything that happens around me because I only think about myself, I only love myself and, most of all, I don't want to be loved.I'm afraid to fall in love. I'm afraid to see myself miserable.And lastly, I don't know how to love at all.I've never been in love in my entire life, but I know what the basis is that you love.During the time I have been selfish, many women have been with me, touched, kissed, and stalked.Even one of them. I felt nothing special, no one felt attraction and, most of all, nothing felt strange to them.That day, I made up my mind that I wouldn't fall in love. There is no love at all. If there is a reason why I do not feel Why does no love come to me when I need it?That was a
It exhausted me to walk towards the hospital while suppressing my drowsiness. Drowsiness couldn’t win over me, especially when I switched to the night shift.I could already see the tall hospital building and the people in the waiting area; the ambulance at the entrance of the ER; and the families crying and handling the paperwork for the morgue."Yhra, have you shifted?" The guard at the table joked with me as I approached for my time card."Yes, it’s my first day on the night shift. Suddenly," I replied, then he checked my bag and signaled that it was okay."So, why did you move?" he asked me, and then I frowned."I have no idea about the suddenly change of shift, and as always, there is nothing I can do about it, I am just a employee." I smiled before running to the janitors’ locker room.I don’t know which floor and ward I’m assigned right now. When I got up in the morning, I was on the ground floor and in the private ward."Yhra, how are you?" My colleague, who was on the locker,
As I stood next to the 7/11 across from the hospital, my entire body hurt. I’ve just gotten out of work after completing my night shift.I’ve been avoiding the doctor’s office as much as possible. I’m afraid to go to Remon and watch him bring a nurse there, and the woman who comes out can scarcely move."Yhra!" I turned around and approached my colleague, Carlo, who was holding a cigarette. He was also a physician, but he was extremely intelligent and lived in a condominium near the hospital."Carlo, you'll give me a mini heart attack," I said to Carlo, but he patted t pat my shoulder and brought me the drink and started to light another cigarette."As you know, I received a message from Remon." I was scared about what he may have said, but I kept it to myself. I know Carlo because I don’t want anybody to know what is wrong with me.He is an excellent buddy. I owe him money on the occasion when I’m in need."What is that rumor? You do not appear to be accustomed to it. Even if you are
I jumped to my feet swiftly, holding my head and striving to recondition myself. Because of my difficulty breathing, I felt as though I was suffocating."Are you all right?" he said, as Carlo’s face revealed itself to me."What am I doing? I have not yet completed my cleaning!" I was shocked and sprang to my feet."Not to worry, Yhra, you may take a break. You're so exhausted, so fatigued," My breathing slowed, and I let him gaze at me for an extended period.I was terrified. What if I become pregnant because of what happened between me and Remon? I’m not sure how else I’m going to get up or where I’m going to get confidence."Is that true?" I raised my eyes to avoid his gaze, as if someone else were suddenly in front of me. I have the impression that I am a really filthy lady."How can you make sure that I will tell what happened, Carlo?""Simply state the truth." I remained mute and nodded slightly in response to what he said. Carlo’s rage was palpable."Why?" I cringed and did not
As I strolled to the brief stop to cool myself and pass the time, the difficulties of the situation took me aback. I felt constricted, as if I couldn't breathe through the anguish, but even more so, if I gazed, nothing would happen.I could hear only the ringing and hum of the air conditioner, since very few people were going by at this hour of the night."We have coffee, ma'am. Perhaps you want it. It's only twenty-five pesos." I nodded and grinned. Each time I recall a phrase Mama left me, I am enveloped in darkness and despair.She put an end to all my hopes for our family. I merely want support, but when times are tough, they'll return it to me."I appreciate it." I smiled once again and handed the coffee over. He stared at me and was perplexed by the objects next to me."Why are you lugging along so many garments? If you're waiting for the bus to depart for the province, it will depart at 4 AM." I drank my coffee and nodded."I'm expecting something. And then I can not return to
He chuckles as he clings to his tummy and sits on the side of the bed. "I’m joking, Yhra," Melchor says."That was a fantastic reaction, I’ll tell you that. If you could only see me, you’d understand why I’m laughing so hard right now," He said, and I couldn’t believe what he was saying. It seemed like all the dread from the previous day was back, and the memories of that day were pushing me away from him.His blasphemy against me is unforgivable, and there will be no forgiveness."You made me feel uncomfortable." I said and then took the food out of his pocket and wallet and placed it in his bag."It’s been a long time since I last time I saw you. I could see mucus flowing from its mouth and frothing at the mouth." Melchor keeps on joking and I can't hide the disgust on my face."Take into consideration that you are a really attractive lady."My cousin’s statements to me had me puzzled.She is my aunt Jessa’s child, and he is about the same age as me."Do you mean to imply that what
"I beg you to let me go, and thank you in advance! Aren't you at least a little bit ashamed of your parents and your ancestors? In such event, you will bring me back to life and pull me to this location. I'll wait here with them till you get back from your trip." I yelled at Remon when we came to a stop at the most crowded part of the resort while we were there. He was making it appear as though he was having a serious problem by bringing his hands to his forehead, but in reality, he wasn't having any problems at all.If you are willing to come with me, I will go through it in further detail. I distanced myself from him and pulled my hand away from his in preparation for the possibility that he would seize it.Please refrain from being stubborn; if you keep acting this way, I will have no choice but to recite what you're saying till the very end of my existence. You have just undone everything I have worked so diligently to achieve. That satisfies the requirements in every way." Immed