They’re coming this way. They’re coming this way. “Nessa…” I have to say it out loud. I have to know if this moment is real or if it’s something I’m making up in my head. A coping mechanism, a way to protect myself from the inevitable hurt to come. ‘Listen Roo.’ She says to me so softly, but my heart is pounding too fast and my breathing is too ragged and too short. I can’t hear anything but the blood pumping to the beat of feet pounding. “Nessa.” I say again. More firm because I need her to wake me up, to tell me that this is all a dream and ease the heartbreak. But she says nothing. “NESSA, PLEASE.” I all but collapse when I see two figures running straight towards me. ‘I’m letting go now, Roo. It’s time.’ And I can feel her starting to release her hold on the mate bond. The mask we have kept all this time to keep us safe. “Wait. WAIT. Nessa, don…” but before the words come out the figures come to a halt just ten feet from me, and I can feel the final release of our hold. “Ro
My high-pitched screams are ripping through my body and at an alarming rate, the tree bark and leaves I've stuffed into my mouth doing little to muffle the sounds. It's hot. Everything is so freaking hot. My skin feels like it's melting off, so slow and too fast all at the same time. My hair feels like it's being yanked from my scalp one strand at a time, and I swear I can feel my organs ready to burst with a loud pop any second.Pain. So much pain. I have to stay quiet. There is a voice in my head shushing me, lulling me, begging me to keep my agony a secret. "They can't find us." She says, her voice full of dread, pleading with me to stay quiet. I feel like she is stroking my head from the inside, trying to ease my pain. "It's going to be okay Roo, I’m here with you. You are not alone. Never alone. Shhhh."Her sweet but pleading tones keep me off the edge of darkness. "Please, I can't take anymore." I cry to her in my head. "It hurts,
I felt free. With Nessa, together as one, we ran. I had wondered in the beginning how after such an excruciating experience turning, I could be so full of energy in my wolf form, but Ness had told me that we get renewed energy as a wolf.I hadn't known anything about being a wolf in the beginning. When Nessa came forward after the first time I had shifted she could sense she would have to slow things down for me. Take it one step at a time and slowly teach me the wolf way.My parents had died, or abandoned me, or were taken. I have no idea what happened to them, just that I had to have had them to exist. I lived with an old human couple in the woods before they passed. They weren't wolves, Ness said we would have been able to smell it on them, but they were kind, fed us and provided for us the best they could.Of course, they didn't understand who Nessa was. They might have thought I was crazy, but they
We were miles away from our cabin, which wasn't uncommon when we were in our wolf form. Ness and I like to run and don't usually pay attention to how far we go. I don't mind walking in human form either, so we casually stroll back to our cabin.My senses are just as heightened in human form as they were as a wolf. I can smell, hear, see, and feel everything to such specificity, it makes me wonder what it would be like if we were to evolve again.Oncewe get to the cabin I shower and change into some jean shorts and a white t-shirt with a small V for the neckline. My human form is nothing extraordinary, not like I am as a wolf. I 'm 5'3, with small features. I'm thin but not fragile. I wanted my human body to be justas strong, so I spend a lot of time running, and eating well.Nessa tends to be quieter while I'm in my human state. She likes to rest, and just go along for the ride. I throw on my slip ons before heading out the door to
I try not to think about what just happened as I drive home, a lot faster than I should. I released Nessa from our cloaking as soon as I turned out of the parking lot, not wanting to hold her back any longer than necessary.Ness stays quiet though, understanding the turmoil my emotions are going through.I make it home and pull out the groceries, hating that his scent still lingers on the bags he deposited in the back seat. Hating even more how my body reacts to it.I continue trying to process this situation as little as possible as I go through the motions of making steak stir fry with salad, rolls, and water. I make so much food it looks like I am feeding a family of 7. But it’s the wolf way. We need a lot of energy so a lot of food It is.I eat until I can’t fit another bite into my stomach and clean up the kitchen. I change into a night shirt, grab my phone making sure my alarm is set for the morning, and eventually, finally,
I wake up, drenched in sweat to the sound of my alarm. I rub the sleep from my eyes as I trek to the shower to try and wash off the feel of him that still lingers over me."It was just a dream." I tell myself and Nessa scoffs. "Don't start." I chide her."What?" She retorts. "It felt good, even if it was just a dream and you know it. Imagine how good the real thing would be." I can practically see her raising her eyebrows suggestively at me."Stop it. It's just the mate bond." But even I don't believe myself. Nathaniel is hot. So unbelievably hot. It's stupid and unfair how good looking he is. And while I am being honest with myself, I can admit that he's actually a really good guy, a good alpha. He just wants to have the one thing from me I don't want to give. Control.As alpha, he runs his pack fully and completely. If I would be accepted into the pack, my life would no longer be my own. If the alpha says stay, I literally would ha
I go back to my locker, not looking at her, and shrug. “Oh you know. Same ol’ same ol’ with the alpha. Just using my lack of sleep as a way to try and get me into the pack.” I know that wasn’t what he was doing, Ness and I truly believed the concern was genuine which doesn’t make me hate him less.“Uhhh. Try again sister. I know what I saw and you NEVER let Nate get that close to you.” She says pointedly.“Nate?” I say back, looking at her now. “Since when do you refer to him as Nate?” I know that I am angrier than I should be, but I also know that there aren’t many people he lets call him by that nickname. He wants to keep the separation between pack and alpha. He has to keep the line between classmate and alpha clear.Now it’s Melody’s turn to shrug, but I can see the guilt behind her eyes. “I don’t know, last week or something…” Her eyes don&rsqu
The day is boring and slow for the most part, tuning out people's emotions and turning in on myselfinstead. I’m having a hard time focusing because my mind keeps going back to the Alpha. Specifically, the differences.“Why would he smell different, Ness?” I just can’t shake it. It had to of been him.“I don’t know.” She replies. “His woof was…”She doesn’t finish and that piques my interest further. “What, Ness? His woof was what?”She doesn’t say anything for a few minutes, and I begin to wonder what she could be feeling that she isn’t ready to share.The bell rings, signaling that my class is over and it’s time for lunch. I gather my things and start heading out with the rest of the class. I’m not really paying attention to what’s going on, until I smell it.Cinnamon… and firewood.I look around, trying desperately to