Find a way

It's been a month since I found out the savior of my life, whom I trusted the most just used me as a money-making machine. I felt betrayed. All I do for the last four weeks is just get drunk and knock out. My heart hurt not because I broke up with him but the feeling that I was fooled by him and allowed him to use me. I hate myself for being this dumb.

As usual, I take my favorite tequila shots in broad daylight. My thoughts were snapped by the sound of my door slamming. I chin up, my hazy eyes meet my bestie who is always right about David. He sat next to me and stared at me skeptically. I scoffed, "What?"

John sighed, "That's what I am asking, WHAT?". I sharply took a deep breath, "You know John". He shook his head in disbelief and asked "Can I ask you something?" I just hummed so he continued "But.. You should be honest with your answer" I just nodded my head. He shooted, "Do you love David?"

I made a pause, and after two minutes of deep silence I replied, "NO but I trusted him by all means". John snatched my tequila from my grip and said "First stop this shit. You stink, when did you take a shower last, we need to talk." I took my weight slowly from my bed. I took a warm tub bath. Then when I came out, got dressed, and Went to the living room, the smell from the kitchen made my stomach growl.

John plated the food, I took to fill my stomach. After that, I went back to the living room. John was waiting for me with Adam.

  I took my sweet bean bag. John started "So what's next?" I sighed softly and said, "Don't know. But I need a change of scenes". John smiled warmly and asked, " Then why don't you go after what you like?" I made a frown and asked "What do you mean I like. I don't want to work in the technology field for a while, the only thing I like making me crazy so I decided to " before I completed my sentence John interrupt "I didn't mean your job bitch." I made a frown and said, "Aww. Then what?".

John looked into my eyes and said "Ian". My eyes went wide when by heard his name. My heart pounding fastly, I shuttered "I.. Don't.. Know.. What.. You.. Mean" He chuckled and said, "But I know you like him". I sighed and said, "Seriously John. Ian? I admit I had a crush on him but going after him, I don't think it's a good idea. You know he is an actor, a famous public figure". John said, "So what? You like him then what's wrong with going after him?" I paused for a while and continued "John even I like him do you think it's a good idea for a woman to go after a man, and we don't know his status in a relationship".

John chuckled and said "He is single and think of it Stef. You don't want to go back to your past, you already messed up in your present why don't you go after your future? Life is very short dear. At least enjoy some as you like with who you like". I thought for a bit then spoke, "But how?" John hugged me and said, "That's the spirit. Here my boyfriend has an offer for you".

I turned my gaze to Adam, he walked to us and sat next to John on the couch. He said, "My CEO in the NewYork branch is retiring in the next two weeks. If you are willing you can take over the company there and that position will be helpful for you to be close to him". I was silent for a while thinking all possibilities then I thought of John's words. Life is too short I want to live as I like.

I sat straight, turned my gaze to Adam, and said "Ok Ad, I will take over the company, you are aware that I am not so experienced in the fashion world but I will make sure you won't regret hiring me. I didn't want to do this just to go after a man I like, I need a change. So I guess it will help".

Adam and John hugged me and said "We gonna miss you". My eyes swelled with tears of happiness.

After that day I began to know about the company I gonna take over, I learned all the important things about the company like how they prepare the clothing for people, how they import the brand to the country, how famous is the brand in that city, who else the distributors, where else they have showrooms, who else the model they use and so on. Adam arranged a secretary who gonna help me, he also arranged a penthouse for me. I booked my flight, ordered packers, and movers to shift my things there in my penthouse. I did some research about my crush.

Yep about Ian then I get to know he is an actor who acts in a gay role. In that city, they were crazy about gay couples, I also found that they ship the actors. I already set everything finally I want to know one thing important. I want to confront David. I need a clear explanation so here I am standing in front of his office. I took a deep breath and walked inside all my colleagues ran to me and surrounded me they were all continuously asking questions. I made them stop and say " Guys. I will explain everything to all but before that, I want to meet David".

They all nodded and went back to their work. I gonna miss these sweet people, I love all my colleagues who worked along with me to get what I want. I took the elevator, went to his office, and knocked. I heard "Come in".

When I entered he was concentrated on his computer screen. I walked to his desk and cleared my throat to get his attention. He chins up once his gaze is mine he gets up abruptly, runs around his desk, hugged me. I stood there like a statue. In a minute he parted from me, knelt before me, and said "Sorry". I sighed, grabbed his shoulders made him get up, and said  "Care to explain?" He nodded his head vigorously.

We went to his office couch, we flopped our weight. He started "Sorry Stef. I know I did something terrible that can't forgive but believe me, now I realize that I lost the most precious person in my life." I sighed and said, "It's ok David. I forgive you after all you gave this new life so I am grateful for that. You know what without acting like this if you asked me to work for you for my whole life I would do that gladly". David's eyes were torn up. I wiped it and said  "But now I can't continue to work with you. I going to New York to take over Adam's company branch there next week. I want to tell you that and I want to say farewell to my dear colleagues that's why I came here".

David sniffed a bit and said "I know I did an unforgivable thing. So I have no right to stop you but I want one thing to do for you." I made a frown and asked, "What?" He got up from the couch, went to his locker, got a file, came back to me, and handed the file to me before I opened it he spoke "This is the recent project you did. I bought the rights for this project under your name. Now, this project belongs to you and you have the right to do anything with this. This is the last thing I can do for you. All over the world, this project is wanted by many companies so it's now your wish to whom you want to give".

I sighed softly and said, " Thank you, David, for all the things you did for me and I forgive you so lead your life further with the one who you truly love. I genuinely wish happiness in your life". I hugged him, he hugged back me. Then I went to my colleagues and said to them I gonna work in a different field for a while. They all wished me all good things. Then I went back to my apartment and felt relieved.

Now waiting to see my crush next week.

To be continued...