Days passed and her preparation period was over. Today was her first exam.
Second year and first year exams are scheduled to be on same day but 2nd year students' exams were in morning.
Whereas First year Exams were in afternoon but they all were in university from morning as usual. Her eyes were finding him since she steps into premises of her department. Her speculations were if he is in first year like her, he will definitely appear at exam time but if he is in 2nd year, she will saw him coming after the paper.
But if he is of 3rd or 4th (last) year, there is 95% possibility he will not come if he does not have any 1st or 2nd year improve exams.
Her exam preparation days were spent thinking about more of him and less in studying for her exams.
There was only 20 minutes left in her exam and she was trying to revise her notes but she was unable to concentrate.
"Oh Ansha!!'" She cursed herself inwardly as she was conscious of the fact that she is not alone and her whole group of friends is present here.
"You were not like that. You are famous for your focused nature. And now you are ruined because of a man.
And you don't even know him up until yet. What you will do if this whole thing will advance?"
"Why are you frowning like that?"
Rabeel wave her hand in of her eyes.
"Eh?! It's nothing. I'm just nervous about exams." She again tries to brush off the topic.
Rabeel was growing suspicious to her day by day. She has to be more careful.
"You are always like that nowadays. Always frowning and restless. I hope it's only exams."
"Yeah! I'm assuring you." She says with a smile.
"You always perform best in your exams. Why you stressed so much each time? It's just like a ritual?"
"Ritual? What ritual?" Ansha replied with astonishment in her voice.
"Yeah, ritual to ace in exams. And in this includes stressing over it so much."
"Are you out of your mind?" She said amazed.
"I'm saying this because it always works for you. The more you stress, the more you are successful. I think it is sort of dark magic traditions." Rabeel said hiding her smile.
Ansha just stared at her. But the whole group burst out laughing as Rabeel was only teasing her.
After that they decided to go towards the gate to wait for it to open for entry.
Gate was not open yet, so they were waiting outside where the bikes are park.
Ansha sits on one of the bikes and open her notebook in her lap and start revising once again but this time with concentration.
Her focus life was short because she sees the one for whom she had been waiting for the whole day.
He had just come outside from the building with his friends.
He sees her. But she kept her head low.
Then, he went towards the shop which was opposite to her. And kept standing in the direction of her.
She can feel his focus on her but she doesn’t know what to do.
"Please just take one more step. Please approach me. I don't know what to do. Please confirmed that this feeling is mutual. Let's talk! Let's talk please. I'm waiting. Please! Please!". She was repeatedly saying these sentences in her heart. But due to her shyness she can't even held her head high or do something to advance his moves.
" Let's go! The gate is open".
Rabeel grabbed her hand and she had to go with them for their exam.
"Again, a close miss! Alas!" She again cursed inwardly.
At night she was again thinking of him and her findings of today.
First of all, he is not a first-year student as she is. He may be 2nd, 3rd or 4th.
Today's scene replayed in her mind. How he was just few steps away from her.
In frustration she closes her eyes and waits for the sun to come up.
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On the next paper day, he was nowhere to be seen.
This confirms her suspicions that he is not even 2nd year student.
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Her all papers were done but he was never seen again after the first paper.
On her last day she specially waited for him. But he never appears.
On that day she feels a little heartbreak. As it was first time for her. She thinks of it deeply and was in pain.
Unknown to her that this was nothing as compared to what she has to go through in coming future.
Her first semester passed like that with her feelings still hanging on.
She can only wish that he is not in last year as it will only give her 1 more semester time. But if he is in 3rd year there is still 3 semesters time left with him. And so much can happen in this time.
Present Time... She was going through her Snapchat memories. Those photos were from the last day of her first semester. Her selfies, pictures with whole class, the happy moments of her group friends and with Rabeel. Seeing her selfies with her, the clips of her happy memories flow through her mind but end at the sad note. What she did to her leaves a thorn in her heart forever. At times she thinks, why she did all this to her. But she already knows all the answers. She put down her mobile and let her back rest on the sofa. She already has so much issues in her life to sort out. She does not have time for the past. As she thinks that her past has only added to her miseries. She has to survive in her present. Her 22nd birthday is coming up soon but before that she had to get a job. The reminder tone of her mobile reminds her that her interview is in 2 hours. She had to get ready. S
The acceptance call from the company which came in the morning was enough for her happy to the moon and back mood. She has to join on the day after tomorrow. She called Nisha and set her plans for the day. First, they will do shopping then Ansha would treat her in her favorite restaurant. After that she message another person. “Got selected! I’ll be joining the day after tomorrow so I’ll be super busy. Meet me at our usual place tomorrow for dinner?” “As your wish sweetheart!” He replied. She smiled at his expected message. Later that day in Shopping mall…. They were leisurely walking with their hands full of their shopping. Ansha was humming a song. “Well, well, well your excitement for this job is already over the moon and you haven’t started it yet. I think you will not
Again, the night was restless today too for her. She was tossing and turning on her bed. Tears were just uncontrollably flowing out of her eyes, despite of all her attempts to not to cry. After sending the files through e-mail on time she was just like this. She thinks of sleeping but that seems impossible to herself. In the end she just sits up and holding her knees, she gave in to all her sorrows. She cries harder, holding herself tighter. He just appears again. When she was finally ready to move on. Despite of her hate for him, her love is always more. And from her love for him, the broken pieces of her heart are even more. With her cries getting intense, she was shaking badly. As always, there was no one to hold
Back to Past… This was the fourth day of her 2nd semester. This time she was more hopeful for their ambiguous relation. Her heart was even more attracted to him. On her first day she only saw a glimpse of him. Later, she was unable to find him. Later that day, Ansha and her friends were going to photocopy shop to purchase their lab handouts. They have to pass through a corridor in which there were classes of senior year students. There she saw him. He was standing there with his friend. He also looked at her. When she came closer, he whispered to his friend and pointed towards her with his eyes. She noticed it all but ignored it. She can only feel happiness in her heart as she was afraid to show it. On her way back from the shop, she was more than happy. She had to go back from the same corridor, she saw that he had en
PRESENT TIME… A week had passed. And every day was same. Starts with load of works and sometimes with some mental torture. And ends with the announcement of tomorrow’s workload. She was already feeling tired of her dream job. At first, she wants to continue her job no matter what as she loves her work but everything is falling apart here for her. Every day her hopelessness is only increasing. Now, she was hesitating. Her boss and colleagues were welcoming and friendly to her but suddenly her boss is clearly showing his dislike for her and all her colleagues are keeping their selves at a distance from her. This is too much for her. Only Maira came for her help whenever she gets a chance. Many times, she would be chased away by boss or his assistant but she always comes back. Finding a friend in her in this chaos is a blessing to her. She was deliberately ignoring the fact of involvement of Ahmer in her misery bu
At Night… Ahmer was watching her today’s recordings on loop on his laptop. The screen was showing her video of sitting with her head in her knees, holding herself together. She was in pain. She had been wronged. She was tired of all this. But she never looks up. The screen shows Maira coming for her. She doesn’t even say a word of complain to her. She can let her frustration out. But she didn’t. Now, the screen was showing her reaction after seeing her gift in worst state. She got hurt after seeing the tie. Tears were evident in her eyes when she was holding it in her hand. She suddenly got up and get out of the door. He waits for her. She has to come to him. She will definitely ask him about the things happening to
At Weekend… The empty boxes of pizza and other fast food with bottles of drinks were scattered on the table and Nisha can be seen sitting on one of the chairs around the dining table holding her head with both of her hands. Ansha was sitting beside her with her hand on Nisha’s back, trying to comfort her and let her digest the news, with a face full of unexpected grievance mix with confusion and expected reaction of Nisha. “Nisha! 10 minutes are already passed. When are you going to lift up your head? Just say something.” “SOMETHING!” Nisha replied, never lifting her head up for even once. “Are you serious?” “So, what did you want me to say?” She was sulking but this time she lifts up her head.” “Scold me please.” Ansha said to her with her eyes facing south. “By which right?” “Only you have this right.” “Then you should have come at once to me. On the ver
She was on her desk doing her work. Her mind was continuously wandering about the past events. She wants to let it all go but this feeling of despair is not letting her doing so. She recalls her conservation with Rayan of a night before. "He wants to meet you.This weekend is alright for you?” She was already in her bed when she receives his messages. “I just want some more time to think about this.” “I hope you don’t mind.” “Why would I even mind but just keep in mind that I only want best for you…” “Yeah! I know. ❤❤” “Are you alright Ansha?” She got stuck for a moment as to what to reply to him. She doesn’t want to lie to him but