Chapter 2

Anna pov

One month later

I ran away like I wanted, and at times, I regretted it, but I couldn't look at Luca or Lorenzo without fear now. Waking to them was the worst, and it showed on my face each time.

"Doctor Anna, welcome to Howl." I smile at Alpha Sebastian Howl as he walks up to me. He goes to reach out, and I flinch, making his eyes widen.

"I'm sorry, alpha, I'm embarrassed as he studies my face, thanks for accepting me here," he nods, but his eyes stay on my face studying me. I'm jumpy around men now, something that kills me. I was always outgoing till Luca and Lorenzo destroyed it. My cell rang and dinged every day from them, but I never answered it. I couldn't they caused me so much pain.

"Again Anna, Sebastian ,says smiling, we welcome you to Howl, and if you have any issues, come see us," he motions between him and Ben.

"Thanks, Alpha and Beta, I will, but I don't think I will have issues," I say softly, praying to the moon goddess, I have no problems pop up. I couldn't be more wrong as a few years passed, and I saw Spencer in the pack. He looks surprised to see me but doesn't cause issues. I did leave without permission, but I had valid reasons for this.

"Doctor Anna, long time no see," he watches me chart.

"Yes, Spencer, I shift uncomfortable, I love it here. How are you?",his eyes narrow as he watches me.

"I'm here to stay with my mates. I'm good, but you don't look healthy Anna",I sigh.

"I'm fine," I keep charting.

"No, you're not, and neither is Luca or Lorenzo," I stiffen.

"They got Bethany by their side. Both are fantastic," he sighs.

"She ran away Anna just like you did",,I scoff in anger.

"Both deserved it, I'm upset, I lost a lot thanks to those three. I didn't even want to live Spencer, and at times, I still don't. I should have joined my dead pup. "I storm off, trying my best not to cry and break down.

"Anna!, he calls, honey, come back!"I rush to an on-call room and lean against the door as the tears run down my face. A knock makes me jump away from the door as Spencer steps in.

"Please no, I cry more, I just want space," I whimper as he gathers me close. I feel his sorrow for me as he rubs my back, trying to soothe me. He holds me, and I sob hard in his chest.

"I'm sorry, Anna, his deep voice rumbles, I know you're hurting, honey, and I know you need time to heal," I sniffle.

"I've been trying Spencer, I am never going to heal." I break down as he holds me. I soak his shirt, and he lets me. I'm exhausted by the time I ease back.

"Awww honey, he wipes my cheeks. You're going to heal it just takes time. You also need sleep Anna",I sniffle and nod no. I barely sleep either. Sleep always brings the same nightmare each night. The slap, my fall, and losing my pup in one go. He rubs my back as I keep sobbing into his chest.

"I'm sorry," I croak out, and he holds me tighter.

"You have no reason to say sorry Anna you went through hell, but you need to let us in, honey. You need to eat Anna and take care of yourself too, "he murmurs softly as I hold onto him crying. I usually can stop crying, but today I can't. I took care of some pups and it has fucked with me. I stare at them pups thinking of mine and it makes me hate my field of work. I may switch to emergency care because each time I take care of babies I struggle for days after. He lifts me and leaves the room heading to only goddess know where. I'm placed on a bed and feel a needle prick my skin then complete peace as I fall asleep.

I wake hours later to doc in my room looking at me with worry.

"Your underweight Anna and your barely eating or sleeping something has to give",I look down and sigh.

"I do eat doc and I sleep",he looks skeptical as he checks my machines.

"Well your getting a few days off to rest , I go to protest this but he raises a hand, Alpha Sebastian ordered this because he witnessed your breakdown. If you got an issue with it take it up with him I'm only going by his word",I shut up at that and just accept I'm in this bed for a few days. He looks at me sadly before he leaves and I sigh again. Closing my eyes I almost jump as I hear my door open and two voices I never wanted to hear ever again.

Luca and Lorenzo walk in and I fake being asleep so I don't have to look at them.

"Fuck she looks so exhausted ",Lorenzo sighs sadly.

"She lost more weight, Luca sounds miserable, look how frail our girl got",both sit and I hear Sebastian walk in. Everyone can feel his aura because it is so strong and powerful.

"I ordered doc to give her time off guys, he steps closer to my bed, she really needs it. Spencer carried her in and doc sedated her for me",fuck he really did order me to rest.

"She looks frail",Lorenzo says.

"Yes I'm thinking she needs a couple weeks off now that I see her up close. I'm going to check on her often. You two need to go lightly with her because she has been through way to much",both sigh sadly.

"She is still fucking beautiful, Luca murmurs softly, she always has been and always will be but Lorenzo she isn't going to forgive us for what we've done to her",I stay still but damn if I don't want to cry right now. When they leave I open my eyes and sigh.

I turn my back to the door and lay there thinking. Are both here in Howl to stay? Will they want us all back together? How do I keep them at arms length? I whimper as my eyes fill with tears as the past bombards me again. I get flashes of the slap and fall every fucking day and I cry everyday.

Luca hurt me in the worst way possible making me relive it over and over. My pup I lost my baby thanks to mates that reacted instead of listening to me. I ran away because dealing with them after the loss of my pup fucked up my world.

"Anna, I jump as Spencer speaks, honey I brought you food",,I sit up and he sighs seeing my tears. I hate showing weakness and worst I hate breaking down.

"Sorry I got your shirt snotty",I said.

"Your all good honey and you looked like you needed a good cry. Rest for a few and eat",I nod as he sets up the food and pats my hand. Looking at it I feel no urge to eat but I knew if I didn't then Sebastian will Alpha order me to eat. I start eating slowly and sigh a few times between bites. Looking at the food I sigh again.

I lay back and sigh as my belly protest this food.

"Thanks Spencer ",I say as he packs it up.

"Any time honey. I'm bringing food everyday so your going to see me often",I nod.

"Okay, I sigh out, thanks Spencer ",he smiles as he leaves but I'm dreading each visit. The worst ones are going to be my mates and I know damn well groveling will come with their visits.