After the talk I had with Luna I knew I needed to do a deeper introspection on myself so that I could move forward fully like I had been advised.You know life was really hard to get. It's not like I had never been through something like this before. I have lost a loved one before. My parents, but then I guess it was different somehow because I knew with them I couldn't replace them even with any person that wanted to take the parent role in my life, somehow they could never be what my parents were, they could never give birth to me... But when it came to a partner. It was so scary. Letting go of Olivia meant opening up to someone else and being that vulnerable again. It meant forgetting what she and I shared and living with this other human being. The thought of that scared me and it also made me feel uneasy. Liv meant the world to me, and moving on fully felt like saying goodbye forever.But Luna was telling the truth. I needed to admit that she was no more so I could live my life.
Bangkok was beautiful.. And I told myself that it was probably because it's Thailand's capital, but since I moved here I've kinda experianced pretty awesome things in this place on my own. The city is known for a lot of things but mostly its vibrant street life.When I got here I had no idea what that meant but I sooner understood when I decided to take a stroll down the streets to refresh my head and make it run away from some old demons I was trying so hard not to think about.Olivia made it a bit easy. Her late night calls where she'd force me to remind myself how smart I was and how it wasn't a coincidence that I got this job and I should make the best of it. She was God sent. 3 months fully in Thailand and you'd actually think that everything would be all amazing with me. You'd think I'd have made friends and would have seen more of the city that's known to be beautiful. But the truth was the opposite. I had no friends, I was very antisocial, I had no idea how to even be and th
I got inside the shower and started running water. I ran my hand on my still naked body and smiled when I imagined it being Zaynab..I shook my head and mentally patted myself on the back. Woow... I never thought someone could just come to me and then hours later I'm sleeping in their apartment.. That was so unlike me.I felt a hand around my waist and a kiss on my shoulder then turned around to the girl who had me at her place hours after officially meeting."hey... Are you good?"I smiled, "yes I am good Zaynab.. Are you... Good?"She bit her lower lip and kissed my nose, "I am fantastic Amora.."God how she said my name drove me to a little place where there was just me and her.She kissed me and then looked at me, "may I?"I pushed her against the wall, "we are late Zaynab..."She winked, "just 10 minutes.. It's all I need" We all know that it didn't take 10 minutes.. Coz I wanted to touch her too. ..We arrived at work.. late might I add. She held my hand and smiled, "so I'll s
I sat on my chair and stared blankly at the laptop in front of me. I was still shocked... I did not expect that at all. She was so good, so calm, so... I don't know. She was just free as if nothing in this world ever bothered her.She was coming? What were the tasks that she was "supposed" to give us? Godness why couldn't they just let me be here for three years without having to see Tawny one bit. I was doing good. I was doing great actually.It took me so much to reach where I was... Okay maybe it took me our welcoming party to meet people.. But that was the worst 3 months of my life...Then now she shows up. God! She was like this drug that I didn't understand.. A drug I wanted to let go but deep down hardly could. A drug that you'd go to rehab for and then when you get out you jump right back into it. I didn't know what to think... But seeing her just raised unknown feelings within me. It wasn't madly in love, it was just confusing feelings that I really couldn't understand myself
Tuesday flew by pretty quick. Thalia kinda stayed away from me and I felt bad coz I knew I caused that by my behaviour yesterday. So later on after work I went to her desk, "I missed you today.." She smiled and pulled me into a hug, "I missed you so much more.." I pulled away, "don't kill me please. What are you doing now?" "nothing.. I'm going home.." "could we go to my place.. I need help with something.." She ached her brow in question and I kept quiet. I didn't want to tell her this here and now because I knew she'd go insane and scream. She's told me a thousand times to ask Zaynab out like a few weeks back and I refused. She said we'd be great we just needed to make things official."come on Thalia.. Please..." "I need to know though...""you will love it I promise. Just trust me please.." She took her bag and her phone then started typing while she was giving me these questioning looks. I smiled, "trust me.." She nodded her head, "sure... But I have to tell someone some
I sat on my desk and took a little breather. Right at this moment my mind was all over the place, why was she hear early? She was supposed to be here in the next coming three weeks but she came early? Why? Did something happen that needed her here so suddenly?I didn't know any answer to the questions that were building up in my head, but still I asked them over and over again as if I was having a conversation with her."Thalia.. Lucy and Amora... Join us in the meeting. Tawny needs to talk to you guys.." Abigail said and then she disappeared.I sighed and got up. I felt hands on my shoulders and Thalia smiled. "relax. You didn't do anything wrong. Word is that she came here early because someone messed up.."I furrowed my brows in confusion, "someone messes up? How? And who?""you didn't hear that from me and that's all you're getting.." I laughed, "Thalia... Are you fucking Abigail and is she telling you work staff after sex.." The girl just smiled and pretended to be zipping her
The rest of the week consisted of me just seeing a glamps of Tee going to see Abigail and then I wouldn't see her at all. At some point I was even tempted to text her but I stopped myself. If she didn't want to talk to me coz I was fucking someone else then so be it. I decided to take my phone one evening and call Olivia. Her phone rang twice and then went to voicemail. I was a bit sad that I couldn't get ahold of her but I shook it off. From then, Lucy, Thalia and I concentrated on our project and also Zaynab was concentrating on their task.My phone vibrated during lunch..**Zay: Hey beautiful you.. I kinda miss you. 3 days without seeing you is torture... Worse knowing that you're here and not as far from me.**I smiled a bit. I actually missed her too... But I have been ignoring her because I felt a bit weird. And now I was feeling shitty for ignoring the girl.I quickly typed back.**Me: Hey hot you.. I miss you more. Tell you what. Friday we can totally be together. This proje
I got back to my flat and started pacing back and forth. God why did I do this? I could have told her I was busy... But then again she sounded worried.. She didn't sound like her usual bubbly self.. So I was worried. But here I was now nervous as hell waiting for her to call me.I looked at the time and mentally calculated, she was going to call in 15 minutes. God it took me 5 minutes to come here?I sighed and quickly took off my clothes and jumped in the shower. Maybe getting me cleaned up would keep my mind busy and I wouldn't be so nervous or worried about the girl.Why was I even nervous in the first place I've talked to Olivia a number of times and I've never been like this. God I was going to lose it.I quickly got out and just then my phone immediately started ringing."fuck!!" I said before wrapping a towel around my body and quickly running for my phone. Without even looking I took it and put it on my ear, "heeyy..""your ear looks pretty good from inside you know..""ewwwww