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This chapter contains physical, emotional, and mental abuse scenes. Some readers can find this work &
Mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausted there are no words that could describe the relief I felt as four police cruisers pulled up to the house. Jax was a strong man, but there was no way that he could take all the officers on. In that moment, I realized that this truly was the end to my living nightmare. I stayed sagging against the car as I watched two police officers go after Jax to calm him down and two officers came over to speak to me.Once the officers got close enough to see my face, they immediately asked me if I needed an ambulance. I told them no, but the other officer insisted on calling the paramedics to check me out. One officer started asking me questions regarding what occurred, while the other one started to write down my answers in a small spiral bound notebook that he pulled from his breast pocket. A few moments into the interview we were interrupted by yelling.I looked over to where the officers had followed Jax and could see that he was st
As we loaded the last of the large furniture into the trucks, I found myself once again thanking everyone there, especially Emily. Thanks to everyone’s generosity I was feeling relieved that we were able to get the large furniture out, and anything of high dollar value that belonged to either myself or the kids. I was relieved that if Jax did get out of jail soon, that anything that we were not able to grab right now could be replaced.The kids were excited as we started moving stuff into our new house. Even though today had started horribly, it was beginning to be a lot better. Since the house was a three bedroom the boys agreed to share the largest room, Olivia opted for the smallest room, which left me with the room closest to the bathroom. I was just happy to be out of that nightmare. Emily had another surprise waiting for me at the house. One of her coworkers was selling a queen size bed, and since Emily knew that I no longer had a bed she had bought it and had it
I tried laying down in the bed again once I got everything unload. Sleep still eluded me. The bed was cold, large and empty. I thought about calling Daisy in to lay with me, but she looked cute curled up with Olivia. Thinking that perhaps having too much space was the problem, I grabbed my makeshift pillow and blanket and headed for the couch. The couch was not very comfortable, but the exhaustion finally caught up to me and soon I drifted off to sleep.I found myself locked in a nightmare. I was back at Jax’s house, he had just gotten released from jail. In the dream he was much taller, and his muscles were bulging. He had caught me there removing more of my stuff from the home. He had me trapped in the kitchen, as he had done so many times before. This time he had his gun with him. I could feel the cold metal once again pressed to my temple this time though he pulled the trigger.The dream startled me awake in a cold sweat. My heart was pounding, and it felt li
I was glad that I knew realistically that life was not going to be normal for a while, even if it irked me. Over the next few days my phone rang continuously. The victim assistance advocate wanted me to come in and watch a movie about the court proceedings that would be happening. The child services worker wanted yet another statement from me, and from my children. There was a detective that wanted to speak with me. I had to answer more questions from Officer Connor. The prosecuting attorney wanted to ask me a few questions as well. Jayce was not kidding when he said that I would have to tell this horrific story over and over.The best news that I received was that Jax had been to court and the judge was not immediately releasing him. Officer Connor had spoken personally in court about how Jax had swung at an officer and had to be hit with a taser before they could arrest him. This allowed me a little breathing room to ensure that I was able to get all my things from the hous
Days started to fade into each other. Summer was in full swing and the kids were more settled into the house. I still could not sleep in the bed upstairs, so every night I stayed on the couch and talked to Jayce before exhaustion would finally creep in and overtake me.My first court appearance for Jax was coming up and Jayce knew that I was very nervous about it. He kept my mind occupied by telling me funny stories about the people that would come into his work. I told him about all the interviews, and how I was tired of constantly having to talk about Jax. We started joking more and more about getting together in real life. Due to a change in Jayce’s living situation his parents had his children most days, so he had a lot of free time. I liked the fact that we could talk about hanging out as friends, and Jayce was still not pressuring me into being lovers.Roughly two weeks had passed when one night Jayce and I had an interesting night. I had successfully gotte
I had been nervous about seeing Jayce in person. We had not seen each other in so long. I had no idea if showing up at his work was the right thing to do, but he was still smiling as he walked over to me. He quickly gave me a hug and told me I looked good. I wanted to get lost in his warm embrace. It felt nice just being able to see him again. I was surprised that old feelings began to stir, and I wondered if this truly had been a good idea.“Wow I cannot believe you are here. Wait why are you here?” Jayce was a little shocked and slightly confused. I had never come into his work before, and this usually never stopped at this gas station.“Well, I was still moving a few things, and after we had talked last night, I did not want to wait to see you. It seems like both of us have schedules and we keep missing each other, so I decided to stop here to see you.” I rushed my explanation out, hoping that it did not sound lame. Hearing the words made me
The day after I had dinner with Jayce, I got a call from the victim assistance worker, and the prosecuting attorney. They wanted to have a meeting with me regarding what was going to happen in court and how they wanted to proceed. I was anxious to get court over with. I knew that Jax was appointed an attorney, so I was hoping that meant that things were going to start going quickly. I set up the meeting for the next day.Today was my first day back at work and I was slightly nervous. I was happy to be making money again, but this was a new place with new people. I used to be outgoing and willing to talk to anyone, but now I questioned everyone and worried that they would be friends with Jax. I knew that most of today would be orientation, so I was not too stressed.I was surprised to find that the day flew by. My new coworkers were older than I was, but they were pleasant people to talk to. They seemed genuinely kind and caring, although I could tell that my boss had a
“What exactly is a plea bargain?” When the attorney did not continue, I felt that I needed to ask. From the glances she was giving the victim assistance worker I could only assume that I was not going to like the answer she was about to give me.“A plea bargain is where I give Jax a set of conditions that he must fulfill and in return he accepts the charges, and we avoid a full trial.” It seemed as if the attorney was dancing around the subject instead of giving me the straight facts.“What are the conditions you are asking for, and what exactly would his charges be?” The longer this meeting was taking, the more my rage was building. It seems as if Jax has the world convinced that he is a great guy, and that him beating me was just a fluke.“At this time Jax has been in jail for almost three weeks. I would ask that does sixty days in jail, he would need to complete drug and alcohol classes, as well as an anger management