We walk into the noisy club and the strong pungent smell of liquor immediately hits my nose.
I look up at Steve and can't help but admire him. He was the epitome of teenage cool, something straight out of the movies walking right beside me.
As we take each step forwad, I notice heads turn around to stare at his new conquest and murderous looks from girls. I wouldn't blame them for being that way.
He leads me to a coach and I look up to find myself in a table full of some famous boys in campus including the president.
They are all good looking. But suffer from prince syndrome, this is usually what I call guys who think they are handsome and are so full of themselves. Steve sits beside me , one of the guys tries to talk to me and he puts his arm on my shoulders, as if he's marking his territory. The guys look at each other confused.
I look around and find Bella the sassy girl in my class dancing. She has never been my friend but we know each other. She looks at me smiles and comes to sit on my lap. I can't hide my frustration, I mean I'm trying to act cool because am hanging out with cool guys and she chooses this moment to extend our friendship.
I push her gently towards the guy sitting next to me and she lands on his lap. The whole group bursts into loud laughter the boy is really embarrassed. He shoves her away making her stumble forward before vanishing into the crowd.
I'm holding some beer bottle. Steve says it can't get anyone drunk it's like a soft drink. But I decline the other drinks he tries to suggest.
" Guys, this is Twain my, my...."he clears his throat, "my friend and..."
I feel my insides begin to boil. He goes around to introduce me to everyone and they all seem to be friendly trying to engage me into a conversation."Why would you make Bella sit on my lap?" Jake the guy next to me asks.
Am trying to hold back my words but my mouth bursts without thinking.
" I thought you would like that, well am- a-," I fumble with my words.
"Even you , you couldn't stand her, why would I be able to," he shoots back. And for the first time I realize they all don't like her. He goes ahead to explain how she jumps from one bed to another.
I feel Steve's arm tighten around my shoulder and he gently holds my chin to face him.
" Are you enjoying yourself, I mean are you comfortable?" he asks.
" Totally, am glad I came,"He tries to speak and another song comes into the speakers. My favorite dance hall. Totally ignoring him, I start singing along . Maybe it's the beer fuelling my confidence." You wanna dance," I ask him. I don't wait for him to reply because am heading to the dance floor.
Oh my God, what did I just do , I try to turn around and he's behind me. He's part of the modern dance team and a good dancer. I have to make an impression at least. I have to try. Am not such a good dancer, I mean am kind of thick with extra skin. And some curves that I don't like.. All my life, I've wanted to be thin and petite.
I begin to move my waist singing along, before I notice, I'm whining my waist It's this song by Rihanna and Drake. Am trying to control myself, moving my waist slowly, holding my knees and standing on the tip of my toes. I feel him moving behind me dancing.
He lets out a groan of pleasure and I begin moving even faster. I hear some people cheer. But I don't mind. You have to make a good show. Pretend you know how to do it. My movements are faster and I feel his erection on my behind. Crap! What did I do.
I stop dancing and stand , so it was only the two of us and the whole dance floor was cheering us. I might as well die. We're they laughing at how bad I dance. Jake is staring at me with eyes full of lust and they are all clapping.
The music turns to slow and sensual. He immediately grips my waist and we start moving with the rhythm. The other people return to dance and am relieved.
He's looking at my face. And our eyes are locked. There is something about this moment I don't want it to end. I look down but he holds my head up.
" You know, I'd , I'd like us to be friends, I mean hang out alot and do stuff together"
" That's alot," I say.
" No, I mean it's okay if you don't want that, friendships take time, "
" I didn't mean know, I meant- I was going to say that we can't be friends, we are so different,"" Your waist, it's so flexible," he remarks.
" Oh!" I gasp.
" I mean you dance so we'll, and it turns me on, I didn't know good girls also dance so we'll," he continues.
I'm utterly shocked trying to hide my blush and surprise. He leans closer and I can feel his breath on my forehead and nose. He spins me and am back in his arms colliding with his chest as his lips brush my nose. His movements are graceful. I look up to find murderous glares from girls around me.
He lets go of my hand and starts to dance around me some cool Break dance moves, everybody cheers. I make a move to step back and he pulls me back. Still making crazy sensual moves. Am not used to all this attention and it might as well blow my mind.
Steve clutches my hand and we head back to the table.
" All that for a girl," Jake jokes.
I take my beer and finish it all after some gulps, I feel a little bit better and the tension is gone. I take the second drink and do the same, then the third bottle, I move towards the fourth one, before somebody holds it.
" That's not a good way to drink,take it slowly." Steve says. I stand up but wobble and fall into his lap.
" You wanna dance," I ask again. I don't wait for an answer. I begin dancing on his lap. And there is his erection again. I laugh pleased.
" I think I should go home," I say.
One of the guys offers to keep me busy if Steve wants to go but I say no. He helps me to stand up as we make our way out. Once we are outside, the earth begins to spin I hold him more tightly. I can tell he is looking at me amazed or should I say pleased.I stand in my toes and crash my lips on his. His surprised but kisses me back. His lips are soft and kind of cold tasting bear and some flavor I can't let go off. First he takes my mouth hungrily then slows down, kissing me slowly, making my mouth his.
Steve's P.O.V I look at her she's wasted and very drunk, not good for a girl like her. I never expected her to agree to come with me in the first place. I had been trying out my luck because I knew the answer would be a no. But I would still try, better die trying. Pleasing her is very difficult. She is high maintenance, not the one you think. She doesn't need anybody, so it's high maintenance for somebody to figure out what they can do for her. I hail a cab to take her home, and she can't even get up when we arrive, the gate man is asleep and he won't listen to the constant beeps. We can't stay here forever, so the only option is my place. When I say my place, I hope she won't end up like the other girls. The ones who begged me to please them and fell in love alone, I wasn't their to catch them. I open the door and we get inside laying her gently on my bed. She looks peaceful and happy. I take off her
Twain's p.o.v For a moment our gazes linger before I remember the previous night. Was that me. I close my eyes tightly looking away. Am too embarrassed. Whenever am drunk, my stupid inner slut takes over and kisses my crush without thinking. He's still looking at me intently. Should I apologize ? I bite my lower lip getting ready to talk. " Will you stop doing that, it's so distracting," he sighs. I hadn't realized what I was doing. The words in my mouth quickly pull themselves back down my throat and my tongue tie themselves into a cherry knot . Do people have to be this stupid when they need their brain the most. " Yesterday was fun, am still wondering how bad a good girl can get," he says with a smirk. " Try me," I dare him. " Are you sure, I have been known to make girl's fantasies true," I look down and lick mylips as heat surges through my skin making my
I descended the stairs one by one. This was my walk of shame. Cheers to me for letting my guard down. My head hung low next to my chest. It felt heavier and I couldn't even lift it to see the good days or sunrise. I hear some deep raspy laughter and there he was Jake speaking to someone on the phone. I hope he already forgot about me. He shouldn't make this worse. " Hey, it's you again," he says pocketing his phone. " Yeah," I reply my head down. "Wait!" Before he could continue I was long gone. I stumble on my last step and meet this girl, half dressed, her dress hanging up above her thighs. She looks up at my red eyes and mummers some bad words in disgust. I arrive at the apartment, and find Cindy cooking pancakes and coffee. " Girl, you are back, I was about to call a missing persons report," she says, I never slept out. It was the first time and she deserved to be worried. " Yeah I kn
" Twain! "" Steve," I sit up straight." Am at your doorstep and am sorry for showing up unannounced," he says.I can't help smiling, there is a new glow to my face that I can't explain. So he cares about me." No, it's okay, really cool," I stutter. I can't find the right words to say."But I'm not around, I mean am traveling and my roommate too,"" Oh! Where are you travelling to?"" Nairobi," I reply."Okay, safe journey and.."" And ?"" Take care," he says chuckling.He hangs up and I feel the old lady's stare." Is he the one you like," she asks.I blush uncomfortably and shift my weight." I don't know, this whole feeling is new to me and things are moving too fast," I reply." Make sure he doesn't break your heart, the people we care about the most always do and it's like driving a stake into your chest,"I open my mouth to argue and close
" Will you hold my hand? "It's the second time she is saying this. I'm sitting beside her hospital bed." You know it's not that serious, I'll get well soon and we can eat grilled chicken and pasta on New year's Eve," she says." Do you think they'll let you go home by that time?" I ask her." Of course" she says. "Are you doubting,"" No, it's only that you are getting worse, can't they change your treatment," I reply." No, I only started, the pain killers ain't helping, but they gave me another dose,"" Okay,"" Now sleep and don't worry yourself so much," I say kissing her forehead." In case of anything, will you place take care of your siblings for me and be the responsible one?"" What? Why? Nothing is going to happen,"" Just promise me,"" I will, I say, a sharp pain stabbing my chest,"
You're dumb if you think I never cared, because God knows how many times I broke my heart for you.I drug my feet up the front door heaving. I've never been this tired. I open the door and I'm greeted by emptiness.Cindy's absence chooses to Dawn on me right now.So she really left. I get in and head to my bedroom, it's neat as always. I like having my things in order. All my clothes are always pressed and folded, without any wrinkles. My shoes are neatly arranged, everything is in order.Cindy always said I have a disorder of wanting everything to be perfect. She called it a psychotic disoder, I can't remember the exact term she used.I open my luggage and sort everything out and return the bags to the shelves. Taking my towel I get into the shower and close my eyes. The water is warm and I soak my hair. With soap and shampoo. I get out of the shower and wear my favourite Rabbit
Twain take care of the baby, I'm going out with your sister,'" Can I go with you,""Keep quite, no more of your voice, we are going shopping with your big sister"' Don't go out and make sure he isn't crying,'' Okay, will you buy me crayons,'' No,'I step back, the pain inside my eyes and heart threatening to pull me under.Elaine my elder sister steps out and sticks her tongue out at me. I look at her, not angry, because I want to paint her face on canvasThe moment they step out the front door, Mike let's out an ear piercing scream. I take him out of the crib and begin straddling him. She said she'll be back after two hours. But he won't stop crying.I begin singing some lullaby.
I'm flowingI'm floatingI'm lovingI'm going " Hey, I have a class in one hour time," I shake Steve and he groans loudly caressing me with his honest eyes, blue like tropic skies. Maybe it is just me, but eye movements mess me up. " That's alot of time," he replies with a deep, raspy morning voice. " No, get up, you have that class with me, " I plead and he pulls me towards him before flipping our positions with me beneath him, thanks to his robustness and athleticism. Staying the other night wasn't a bad decision after all. At least there was someone who could help to save me from myself. Listening to the sad beats of my heart alone was boring. But perhaps I didn't need saving. When so much hate and evil has been projected towards a person, they become that. Li