"WHAT?!" WITH WIDE EYES and a racing heart, I shouted and abruptly stood up.
"W-why?" Chandler nervously asked. "W-why d-did you sent the letters?!" I whisper-shouted at her. "W-what? W-what's the matter?" She asked, still nervous.
I looked at nowhere, still shocked and the only thing I could do was slowly sit back.
The girls were out so I was left alone at home. I've decided to write to somehow release some of the emotions that causes my heart to hurt. Sighing, I sat down in front of my study table and started getting a pen and my notebook.
I opened the notebook before opening the ballpen. I stared at the blank canvas of my notebook and sighed once again thinking I don't really have something to write.
I WOKE UP EARLY to meet Charlie at the cafe near our school. I told my friends I'll head out first but they were suspicious so I told them I'll be having my early office visit to do the papers. Their suspicion faded then.While walking, I felt like my heart was about to jump out from my chest. My palms were sweating like I would be in front of my last meal before dying. I can't calm the shivers of my whole body and my knees would melt down anytime.Once I arrived, I opened the door with trembling hands. And as I approached towards him, my tears were begging to flow. I suddenly felt longing for him. He was handsomely sitting beside the window and when I finally arrived in front of him, he smiled at me causing my systems to tremble."Hey," he said, walking towards me. Would he kiss me? O
I TOOK A DEEP breath before entering the café where I'll meet Charlie. I got with me his things that I will be returning today. Last night, I mentally and emotionally prepared myself for this day because I know, this will be the last time I'll see his face this close and that this will confirm that we're totally over."Hi," he greeted as soon as I reached where he was. "Is that my things?" He looked at the box I was holding. "Yea," I answered, faking a smile."Have a seat," he then offered.But I stood still."No, thank you. I have to run some errands so I can't stay longer. Here," I said, placing the box on the table. "Oh, okay then. Thank you for..for this..and for..everything," he said, kind of shy and hesitant.
MY CLASSES FOR TODAY went by so fast and I am now at our office to process the papers and other necessities for the upcoming Job Fair. Ms. Valdez is here as well to assist me and the other members in processing and preparing for the said event."How's the papers, Fawn? Are they already signed?" Ms. Valdez asked without looking at me, busying herself with something on her laptop. "They're already in the President's office, miss. I was told that I'll probably get the papers by tomorrow," I answered, smiling even if she's not looking at me. "That's good, we can finish processing early, then," she added, finally looking at me. I just smiled at her as a response.I then continued browsing through some other papers, feeling relieved that the only paper we're waiting for is the document that needs to be signed by the school president. Dorothy also handed me the written report from our last meeting and I found out that there was just a small progress about the task they were assigned to but
"ANDREI IS ONE OF the recipients!" I screamed in horror, still can't believe that I wrote Charlie's best friend a love letter."You're fucked up, dude," Kayle said, still shocked as well. "What do I do, guys?" I almost cry, "well fuck this, we're facing that dude," Jessica answered, kind of nervous as well. "This can't be happening, this can't be happening," I repetitively said while walking back and forth. I am well aware that anytime soon, this news would blow up, Charlie will find this out and I don't know how to face him if that thing happens."I am so sorry, Fawn. This is my fault, I am really really sorry," Chandler apologizes so I stopped walking to face her, "it's fine, I'm not mad. It's just that, I am scared of what other people may say, especially Charlie. What the fuck did I do, what's gotten in me that I wrote love letters? I am so fucked up," I said, very frustrated. They walked towards me and slowly pats my back for comfort."I'm sure, Andrei will look for me. What wou
I FLINCHED WHEN I opened my eyes as the sun rays crept through my sight and I felt a tingling pain in my head. Did I hit my head on a rock or on something hard? Ugh. "Are you feeling alright?" I heard someone asked.I turned my head to my right side and was taken aback when I saw Andrei, sitting on my bedside chair, waiting for me to rise from the dead. That was a little too much of a metaphor, though. "Y-yeah, I feel good. W-what are you doing here?" I stuttered. I swear to God, I am so terrified at the moment. "I just want to know if you're okay and uh..I want to talk to you about the letter I received," he explained. Do I need to explain it right now? Like as in at this very moment?"Well look, that was a mistake and--," I attempted to explain but he cut me off, "mistake? the address was very specific, it was obviously intended for me to receive," he countered. "I didn't write any name, though," I tried opposing. "Still, I received the letter," he kept up.So what's his point? I
I SWUNG BY THE office before going to my classes as Miss V have messaged me early in the morning, asking me to come see her. On my way there, I saw Andrei with a girl, a petite and a brunette one. They were kind of clingy to each other, especially the girl and I guess Andrei was accompanying her to her classroom. Good for them, I mentally said and shrugged.I continued walking until I reached the office and I saw Miss V, going through some papers on her desk. I slowly walked towards her and announced my arrival by greeting her a good morning."Thanks for coming, Fawn. I just want to know if there are any updates about the upcoming event, I won't be able to attend our meeting again later because I have something to take care of for a family affair this coming weekend. This is kind of important so I want to apologize as well for not being present," she explained while I was sitting in front of her."It's fine, Miss V. I hope your personal endeavor goes well. And for the update, the sch
AFTER MY CLASSES, I WENT straight to the office to work on the remaining papers and fortunately, we were able to complete and finish it all. We were handed the money we've requested for the upcoming event and so, we've decided to buy the materials tomorrow. But since I won't be able to accompany my members, I just instructed them because I'll go home and will stay in our town until Sunday. Dorothy will then take over and promised that she'll update me from time to time. I craved for a coffee so I went to a nearby cafe to grab some before going home since the girls weren't home yet because of org commitments. Kayle and Jessica attended their weekly org meetings while Chandler has to attend her daily training. And since I finished my org work early and knowing I'll be home alone for a while, I've decided to satisfy my cravings first.I keyed my mom before entering the cafe and luckily, there was no line. "Good evening, ma'am, what can I get you?" The attending staff smiled at me from
THE NEXT MORNING, I woke up early to pack the rest of the things I'll bring home and cleaned my room before leaving. My friends woke up early as well to have breakfast with me before taking me to the bus station. They bought a lot of snacks for my three to four-hour trip but I can't consume all of it so I told them to bring home some of it. They refused at first but I insisted. They waited for the bus to be completely filled before going home and I gave them a huge hug and bid good bye.As soon as the bus started moving, I keyed my mom that I'm already on my way and then put on my earphones to relax. I rested my back and closed my eyes while listening to Taylor Swift's The Way I Loved You, Taylor's version. The air coming from the air conditioner calms me as well as it wasn't that cold and it makes me feel really sleepy so I let myself doze off. A while later, I was awakened by my phone's vibration, someone was calling. Other than that, I found out that the man beside me was resting