Chapter 9 First Day With My Mate

Avery's POV

I left my eyes fixed on the ground, frozen and pained, hoping the earth would just eat me up or end me because I honestly didn't know what was next for me. "He really called it lust?", the question escaped my lips as a whisper. I couldn't believe. I didn't want to. It hurt too much to bare.

But this is what I wanted, isn't it? I'm happy if he is... Right?

I felt a lot of things... Happy, angry, heartbroken, confused and scared

Happy, cause my best friend isn't heart broken. I mean, he's happy without me. I'm happy for him. I should be.

Angry, because he had me fooled. It's not his fault he misunderstood his feelings it's mine. Why did I listen? So pathetic. I destroyed everything even after getting warned. I'm disgusted.

Heartbroken, cause I'm still so in love with him. There's no way I can drop the feeling just like that. I actually do love him and it's not just lust. The more breath I take, the deeper I fall. I hate it! Someone else's man for goodnes