Dominic
Riiiiiiiing !
Riiiiiiiing !
Riiiiiiiing!
My eyes opened immediately as soon as I heard my phone ringing loud as fuck. I groaned deeply at the lingering fact that I still needed some more time to sleep, preferably an uninterrupted one. The party that I went to last night was definitely something. My body was inched almost at the very edge of the couch, just about to fall. Much to my frustration, I mustered an ounce of energy enough to keep myself from falling and, at the same time, stretch my arm in order to reach for my phone. I'm pretty sure I did not set up an alarm for today. It took seconds before I realized that it wasn't an alarm but a call from my dad. I honestly don't want to pick up the phone, but I felt like I needed to, and I was damn right. He was calling to give me a heads up that he's already on his way back home from his business trip. I know it was supposed to be a three-day trip, but I guess something's changed. I was taken aback by the knowledge, and my initial reaction cost me to hit the floor unexpectedly hard. I quickly stood up, and then I realized that I am fully naked, my butt and everything just displayed into view. I promptly grabbed my boxer shorts, which is kicked under the table, and quickly slipped it on.
"Hey, time to wake up!" I whispered as if I'm going to disturb some other people here. Panic just took all over me. I know that dad is still hours away from arriving home, but I didn't want to be caught with a guy. I shook the guy, still sleeping soundly on the inner part of the couch. "Hey, wake up!" I made my voice even louder in my second attempt with high hopes of waking him up, and it did wake him up.
"Errr" He opened his eyes, slowly adjusting from the brightness of the morning light coming from the curtainless glass wall overlooking the lavish skyscrapers of the city.
"Wake up! You need to leave," I said to him. I was kind of hoping to spend a lot more time with this hot guy that I met last night, maybe cuddle a bit more longer, but I don't want to get caught taking home a guy on my first month here in Singapore. Dad doesn't know yet that I'm gay, I'm sure he'll be okay with it just like mom, but I want my coming out story to come from my own mouth at the right time and not by being caught hooking up with a guy.
"Like right now?" He asked, scratching his head, a little bit confused at my sudden decision.
"Yes, right now. My dad's coming home," I spat right at him dead in the eye as he quickly understood and got on his feet quickly. He was entirely naked as well, and his softened manhood jiggled into view. That thing served its purpose last night.
"Where're my jeans?" He asked after I handed him his boxers and shirt.
"I don't know, try looking behind the couch," I replied. I was also busy slipping on my pants. He found his jeans under the couch and quickly slipped on it. "Okay, go, go" As much as I don't want to be rude, but I rushed him towards the door.
"Hey, uhm can I get your number?" He turned back to face me once he was already outside.
"What?"
"Your number. Maybe we can go out some other time, maybe have some decent dinner or something like that," He said, ultimately handing me his phone.
"Yeah, sure, sure. No problem" I took the phone from his hand and entered some random number. In my mind, I've made a sudden decision not to see this guy anymore. He's hot and pretty good at bed, but I don't want anything further beyond that.
"Thanks, catch you later, bud," He mouthed, then left.
A week passed by faster than I expected, and I can't still believe that my first month here in Singapore, I already hooked up with someone that is a stranger to me, and even up until now, I still can't remember the name of that hot guy that I hooked up. I thought that that would be the first and only time that I will hook up with some random stranger, but it actually turned out to be the start of a terrible thing that is going to define me as a horrible human being.
I can still remember everything that happened after that Valentine's ball, it was a hell of a nightmare, and everything was dreadful. I really tried running after Valentine with the pure intentions of explaining everything to him, maybe let him know about the things that he didn't know, but I guess fate doesn’t really trust me after that. I became the one big elephant in the room; everyone sees me, talks to me, but nobody wants to talk about it. I am so fucking guilty at the fact that I'm the only reason for Valentine attempting to take his own life. After all that he'd been through, he doesn't deserve what I did to him. Everyone thinks that I'm the monster, that I'm the heartless devil who cold-heartedly ripped Valentine's heart out of his chest with my own sharp claws. At first, I began blaming Valerie and her anti-Valentine club for setting everything up to a perfectly calibrated move. I even resented Yhannie for not even giving me some information so that I could at least cushion the blow, but in the end, I ended up believing everyone. I ended up accepting the truth that I'm the monster, that I'm the villain to this madness. I'm basically the joker to their batman.
Valentine motherfucking Grande. He's truly worth fighting for, but I just gave up the fight. I could've just easily let them took away everything from me and be the poor victim of this vendetta. I could've just let Valerie send that video to the principal and risk being removed from being a candidate for Valedictorian or the worst-case scenario of getting expelled only a month away from graduation and ultimately disappointing my parents. Had I chosen that option, Valentine would probably still end up broken-hearted, and I will still be a total mess. After my graduation speech, I shifted the blame from them to myself. I was the one signed up into that bullshit. I was the one who dragged myself into the quicksand. I did this to myself, and I have no other choice but to live with it.
As soon as College began rolling, my life also began rolling. Everything that happened just happened without me thinking about the consequences of it. I started dating a lot of hot guys, different guys week after week after week. I don't know. I feel like I am desperate to find someone who can help me get through the aftermath of what I did. My life turned around. I'm dying from the pain and guilt that is continually taking my breath away, and yet I'm still very much alive. I'm suffocating from everything, and I guess hooking up with different guys creates a perfect place for me to hide. I lost myself upon trying to figure out how life would turn out for me.
It's eleven in the evening, and I found myself sitting alone in the bar casually drinking my beer as I let my eyes roam around the vicinity with the intention of checking everyone out first before doing some action. A cute guy is wearing some glasses at the corner, he's probably waiting for someone, but I can tell that he's kind of checking me out as well. A tall guy is scratching his stubbled chin who’s probably waiting for someone else as well. Another guy is walking towards the bathroom wearing some leather jacket and ripped jeans.
"Found some cute guy yet?" The waiter named Ozzy with a curly mullet asked as he served another bottle of beer in front of me. I've known this guy for about a month now since I started drinking here in this bar. We've been having small conversations, and that's just about it.
"Uhm, What?" I replied, acting as innocent as possible. Of course, having been here at the very same bar, at the very same spot at the very same time for about a month now, Ozzy already knew what I was looking for here. A hookup.
"That guy seems like he's checking you out," Ozzy said, almost whispering, pointing at a guy a few feet away from me.
"Who?"
"That guy in a floral shirt," Ozzy replied as he went back to wiping some glasses. I turned around to see the guy he's talking about, and he's right. He's checking me out. He smiled the moment our eyes met.
I just kept on drinking my beer while still trying to tease that guy, and after five minutes, he gave up and just walked straight towards my spot.
"Hi there."
"Hi"
"I've been checking you out," He said, subsequently sitting right next to me. "My name's Jonathan."
"Dominic," I smiled, and we did a handshake. "Nice to meet you."
Jonathan and I spent some time trying to score some getting to know each other points from each other. He's telling me everything about his home, hobbies, exes, and basically letting me know how fragrant his name is. Well, I'm buying it for now. We had this weird conversation about turtles until the moment he decided that he had enough of it and told me to go somewhere else.
ValentineI expected that reaching adulthood is going to be pretty damn boring in the sense that you only have the same scheduled things to do, and just two weeks of being one or at least trying to be one just basically affirmed my expectations. I wake up in the morning, take a nice shower, have my breakfast, go to work, go home and repeat. That's it; there is nothing really interesting or exciting or even fun about it as far as I'm aware of. I admit that I've already seen this one coming and I know it's inevitable, but I wasn't ready for it to quickly happen as if it's a lightning bolt, and I'm shocked about the massive change. I should've prepped myself at least but being a person who loves having fun and just enjoying the many things you can do at the young age makes it hard to face this quick change and being a party whore basically, my whole college life makes it even harder to do this kind of transition in a matter of weeks.I see t
Dominic"Oh, wow. Nice car!" I huffed in awe as I laid eyes on the red Maserati waiting for us just only because it looked slick and shiny as if it just bathed in glossy paint or something. "So, where are we heading to?" I asked once we both got inside."Do you want to meet a special friend of mine?" He responds with a very conniving smile, and if I am reading him correctly, this is going to be a hell of a night."Not really," I replied."Oh come on, man, this is going to be fun.""I mean I know how to put the F in fun so yeah, let's hit the road then!" I swallowed.Jonathan drove me to a place that I positively reckon to be his foreshadowed predatorial abode, and tonight, I am going to be his poor and helpless prey. The parking lot at his building is merely dark and quiet enough for me to make some advances to him. I hope that this man isn't married to someone else. He looks and smells more like
VincentEven though my apartment is located in a precise area where mushrooms of buildings kept on popping out of nowhere, the view over my veranda is still splendid in the bright light of the sun. I've imagined this day. Actually, the right term for it is that I feared that this day would eventually happen to me, and now here I am in mope mood. I just woke up from a terrible nightmare that narrowly crippled my hunger for a good night rest and this morning, no matter how beautiful it is, isn't certainly one of the best mornings I've had with Keiran. It's been a month since we ended things and yet my visual memory is still highly attached to all of the magical things that happened between us.Six years.I didn't know how the fuck we lasted that long, but we actually did. It is no doubt that it was the best six years of my life. We created millions of memories together, we bathed together, we cooked together, we partied
YhannieI will never define my final days in high school to be the best days of my high school life. Clearly, it's an utter fiasco that almost emotionally broke every one that is involved. If there is someone pleased and satisfied with their own final days to the point where they define it to be the best chapters of their high school journey, that would totally be Valerie and that little shit club that she created. After that inevitable heartbreaking night at the Valentine's Ball, there were a lot of lines drawn in the sand, in fact, the lines were drawn pretty visibly, and ultimately, in a day, a wall was built providing unwanted divisions. Dominic made his mind to cut off everything that is between us completely, friendship no more, telepathy gone, connection cut. He strictly stopped talking to me, not even be alone in a room with me, and would only bat a hateful eye-roll on me whenever our paths cross in the hallway or at the field. As his be
Dominic"I don't want to go home" I screamed.The day had arrived, and I hated that it had to swoop in so fast that I did not even have at least a small amount of time to prepare for it. I hated it so much that I actually wished to get tangled into an unfortunate tragic accident yesterday and just die instantly, so I'd never live to see this day come and take me back to a place where I don't want to be but, apparently, that did not happen so here I am today, alive and kicking, absolutely scared of heading back home. And although, I've missed my mom and her "I'm not a regular mom, I'm a cool mom" shenanigans, and my little sister with her rude ass tongue who by the way has quickly transformed into a spitting image of my mom who is probably swooning over Shawn Mendes and those popular Korean boy bands at this moment, but I don't really want to go home just yet. Singapore saw me cry under the shower,
ValentineThe day had quickly bled into nightfall, and I found myself drinking at an acoustic bar with all of my friends gathered up. I am astonished to see all three of us here tonight when we couldn't even make a decent plan to meet up and have some bro time without someone cancelling out the last minute. This time, there is no plan made. I totally want to have a drink and have some time to burn all of this stress that I'm getting from work. I just texted both Aldrin and Jack last minute. Whoever shows up, I'll deal with it and, apparently, they both showed up. Many things had changed between the three of us except that we are still tight, but most of it, life had just forced us to evolve. Aldrin is already married and has two children, while Jack is doing a lot of travelling with her girlfriend.“How was it going with the restaurant?” Playing with the beer cap, Aldrin began opening the floor of c
Dominic
ValentineDominic is back.I sat quietly perplexed at the couch after Ivana left the moment her baby had fallen to sleep. My eyes were completely glued on the stuffed toy left on the other side of the couch. Its eyes staring back at me as if there's something on my face. I threw a pillow