A week later Lawrence cousin Kevin came to visit us for a family gathering that I didn't want to go into the first place. This cousin in particular do not like me since I'm the reason his cousin settled down and stop going out to clubs, parties and even stop drinking for my understanding. Kevin would go out his way just to make things difficult for me at family occasions or when he come around to our house. Only thing he wants is for his cousin to drink and be a player like him treat a woman as if she was just nothing but garbage just to throw away in the trash nothing.A narcissistic man cold as ice with no heart or filter. sometime later up on arriving home I decided to go take a shower and get ready for bed Lawrence on the other hand stay outside on the porch with his cousin conversation.so I didn't think nothing of it while getting dressed in my pajamas I heard Lawrence laughing out loud. His voice was so loud that it prompted me to go downstairs to figure out what was going on
I came to the realization that I didn't know Lawrence at all, couldn't believe he had been lying to me this whole time and now that I know he is just like his cousin use women as nothing but pawns to be played with. the fact that he had a relation with someone else outside our relationship pissed me off. I mean he couldn't even satisfy me but he decided to satisfy somebody else needs.I might dream and think or desiring of another man but I would never let another man touch me because I was in a a relationship with him for 10 years of being faithful to him and I loved him and never want to hurt him. damn I wish he could have been considered my feelings when he ultimate betrayed me.Needless to say now that my heart aches with anger all I want to do is go out and throw something at him make a fuss a ruckus causes a scene. but I ultimately decided not to do that. it's time for me to make a decision if I want to stay with Lawrence or get revenge in the end. now confused as ever on what t
I'm a project manager an I really need to get myself together so I can have my deadline in before the week out. with that thought in mind I push my feelings aside and got back to work. when 6: 00 pm hit it was time for me to go home. but I didn't know up on arriving at home that would be someone there waiting. As I pulled up in the driveway I was surprised to see Allen there and I said to myself why is he here. Not wanting to wait any longer I grabbed my bag and hop out the car lock my doors and walked up the driveway to my door and said hey Allen are you looking for Lawrence because he's not here he get off from work in 30 minutes.Allen respond with a smile and said yeah I'll wait for him we got some things to discuss. I was momentary stunned because the way this man was looking at me as if he wanted to devour me at that moment in time. when I say the attraction between both of us was so strong I almost couldn't breathe. up on glazing at this man I couldn't believe why I was feeli
After a while 30 minutes had came and gone no Lawrence I said to myself it's not like Lawrence not come home straight after work. what the hell he could be doing. so I decided to call him the phone ring and ring and ring till finally he picked up. I said Lawrence why you not home yet Allen came by to see you , as I said that I heard Kevin and a bunch of people in the background. This prompted me to ask Lawrence who's the people in the background I hear and where are you he stuttered for a moment and said it just Kevin and his friends we hanging out getting a drink or two I'll be home momentarily then he hung up the phone.Now I'm starting to find this real suspicious Lawrence have never act this way that cousin of his is a real bad influence on maybe I'm just too blind to see that he is not as great as I thought he was. Allen since my confusion and then ask are you okay I just sigh and said nope not really but Lawrence is at a bar with his cousin Kelvin and his friends and say he'll
After talking to Allen and making decision to confront Lawrence all I have to do is wait for him to get home. so I decided to go in the kitchen cook some food I was starting to get hungry. Allen sat in the living room watching TV while I was in the kitchen preparing dinner. what's the food was finished cooking I prepared meal plate and Allen a plate we sat down at the table casually conversating our jobs we do I didn't know that he worked in construction for about 10 years now and he also was single pretty much financially stable nice home nice car. I was prompting to ask why are you single then look at in straight in the and said I have found my match my soulmate my lover who could please him with pleasure. I was so stunned I almost choked on the food I was chewing.Damn this man is so straightforward he reminds me of so much of myself or at least the person I used to be before meeting Lawrence and changing myself just to be with him. now my face turned red and not wanted to look dir
I said how could you do this to me after all I have done for you the things I gave up for you and you betrayed me this way.I can't even begin how furious and angry I am at you if you wanted to cheat so bad why stay with me. you know what I know why because I was financial stable had things going for myself. I'm the reason why you had a car and nice clothes on your back food in your mouth and a job because of me. so you decided to use me and still do you and not be faithful to me. I stay with you even when I was not even happy knowing you couldn't satisfy me the way I need to be.I still stay and gave you a chance because I love you with that being said get your suff and get out of my house right now I never want to see you again and I hate it that I waste 10 years on your ass to be uttered disappointed in the end hell Nicole can have your ass I don't need you or want you anymore I'm going to act as you never existed in my world. Then I screamed at him get the hell out !!so loud that
As Lawrence packed in bags and took all his belongings with him and left I was grief stroking with pain and anguish. Allen who was still here at my house came and sat across from me trying to talk and console me. saying he's not worth your tears please don't cry don't let that man take your joy and your happiness away from you. you are a beautiful strong woman with a beautiful soul. Who did any everything she could to love a man who didn't deserve her. you sacrifice yourself just to make him happy any end he wasn't loyal.but you will ultimate find someone else who would make you happy and give you everything need and your heart's desire.I know it Allen was just trying to help get though my lost my pain I'm feeling now I just at the time didn't want to hear it so I ask nicely could you please leave. he frown but did as I ask but before he left he gave me his number then said call me if you need to anything and need some one to talk to or a shoulder to cry on I'm here always then he l
For the next couple of weeks I stayed busy the project that I was working on was a success like always I'm starting to feel better now that everything is over out the way I can now breathe again. I start doing things that I used to do that used to make me happy I started working out more start dressing sexy but tasteful at the same time. I start going out with my friends to parties that wasn't too outrageous. I start living life again I started feeling like myself returning slowly. During this time Allen did text me everyday just to make sure I was okay he always said something like hello beautiful how was your day today hope all is well. we always talk about our days our life our jobs what we do day to day. he always makes me smile and laugh out loud when he contact me just to check on me.Allen has helped me reflect on myself on who I used to be the last couple of weeks and I'm happy to say that I love the person I used to be. now everyday I start doing something for myself I buy me