Chapter 90

Emily/Jocasta POV

Jacob is laying beside me in our tiny hospital bed. He insists that he wants to be by my side, even though the sleeping arrangement is killing his back.

I put my hand in his chest and feel it expand as he breathes in and out. I can’t sleep here. Almost every trauma I endured happened between these four walls. So instead of drowning in the frustration of insomnia, I use the time to make lists of things I want to do and places I want to visit once I’ve checked out of Sacred Heart.

I wait until Jacob is asleep before I take out my notebook. He became emotional the first time I showed my bucket list to him, so I jot down all my dreams and wishes in the dead of night.

The nurses know not to come into the room when they see my night light on and only check in on me with a cup of tea every few hours or so.

So far, I’ve made a list of memories I want Liam to remember me by, and places I want us to visit together, just the two of us. Olivia suggested I compose a video diary f