How can we define happiness? What is real happiness?
To answer their question, I should know first what is the feeling of being genuinely happy so I can respond to it correctly. But, how can I do that when I have no idea anymore? When did I last feel the warmth of happiness? I think it’s been a decade… My grandparents died long ago same goes for those warm feelings I once had.
"What is it for? "Answering that question won't change anything," I said as I stood, my reflection in the glass window of Rage's office allowing me to see myself and how messed up I am right now. This time, the clothes that my servant meticulously ironed looked like crumpled paper.
They both look at me, but their expressions are different. One is disappointed, one is perplexed, but it really doesn't matter... I look at Rage, who shakes his head slowly and chuckles briefly, his hand now focusing on my waist and his grip tightening.
"You never fail to amuse me, for years we've been together, I can't help but see you as a cute little bunny inside of the big bad wolf identity," he says under his hot breath. “However, do not really act like that in front of me too often; I may very well eat you alive." His words puzzle me.
I'm not sure what I'm hearing; all I can understand is that he's going to eat me alive. But isn't he already done it? I simply cannot help but clear my throat; how can I even think that in front of two Alphas who were behaving strangely simply because of me?
"See? Even if you keep telling me that you are his predestined mate, that thing won't stop me. Your omega doesn't even have the intention of clinging to you like he used to," Rage said as he stood up and walked confidently toward Arther.
All I could do was stare at them as they tried to figure each other out. Their gaze was ferocious as when they were prepared to murder each other... I want to understand and know why Arther acts as if he cares about me to this extent, but I don't want to let myself down. I know he just felt obligated because I rescued him.
I reach Rage’s hand and stop him from walking closer to where Arther is, this topic won’t end if they will continue. Rage has no reason to tell Arther more words about it, everything is worthless. Fortunately, he stops and tilts his head toward me. “What, why did you stop me?” His perfect shape eyebrows almost tangled.
I sigh and shake my head, “stop it, there’s no need for you to tell him that. Just how you describe the relationship between me and Arther, there is no special string attached, right?” My eyes that look on the floor shift to Arther, “I am right, Arther? Only the word fated is the reason I saved him, so there is no reason for you to guard me against another Alpha, Rage.”
I might sound so desperate or bitter, however, that is not the issue. I just want to leave this room immediately and go where Arther can no longer look at me, In the past, I dreamed that those red eyes of his will look at me directly at least once. A stare with emotion but not hate and disgust, but I didn’t receive anything like that.
And, I never expect that he will in the future after I finally receive the news about him letting the other Alpha to use him. I rub my nape, this place will never be marked; not now and even in the future. I won’t anyone to mark me even its Arther…
I have no care now, even if they call me an omega who had no mate. I can protect myself from predators, I won’t let them eat me alive… I look at Rage, if only from the very start he was my mate then I will consider the marking.
Rage takes off my hand but immediately holds it again, right now, I am not the one who’s holding but he is. He squeezes it, I hear his low groan. “Alright, I will stop now. Go and do your work, let’s see each other again later to have lunch together.” He smiles at me genuinely.
That is what he said yet his hand is still holding me tightly as if I was going somewhere, and he can’t find me again. If only, this man was for me then maybe my love life was also full of love and happiness. But I don’t want to be greedy just because of that, like me, Rage has his own predestined mate.
I don’t want to snatch him to that omega, I already know the feeling to have a mate but was in love with another one, I can’t let someone to experience it too and the cause is me. I also have no courage to take a risk for it, there is no certainty that Rage will stay by my side after he meets his own mate.
I nod my head and pull my hands from him, “yes, I will message you later. Let’s meet outside in the building and eat at my sister's restaurant.” I shortly replied.
I can see how his face beams because of what I said, maybe he did not expect that I will invite him in front of Arther… Well, it will be impossible for me to ask Arther to eat there even if I want to… Cas is not on good terms with him. On the other hand, Rage was on the good side of my sister to the point that she pushes me to marry him.
“That’s great! I missed all their food there, it’s been a week since we last ate together in her restaurant. Oh! I might meet her today, right? Maybe we should grab something before meeting her…” I cut his words.
“You don’t need to do that, just your face, Cas will more than be happy.” I almost roll my eyes just as my sister like him.
Rage chuckles, “then fine,” he replies and wave his hand.
Walking outside of the room make me feel relieve but the same time, nervous as I and Arther walk together. Only the sound of our footstep can be hear in the surrounding, every step I make feels so heavy; same goes to my neck that I stop from looking even in my side view.
It’s given a great feeling as I arrive in front of my office, finally, I can be alone now. “Let’s go do our work, the note from my previous secretary was also in your table so just read it for you to know what you should finish or do next.” I said and was about to open my door.
However, Arther slam his palm in my left side that startled me from the bottom of my heart. “Why can’t you answer my question earlier, Dan? Did he threaten you to be with him or something, maybe I can help you?” He said with pull of worry in his voice.
Damn, it must be nice hearing those words if only I hear it in the past. But this time, it’s creeping me out now… Every time he was acting strange toward me give it a chill in my whole body and made me think that I’m going to die unexpectedly.
“If you are just going to keep me ask about it, then I rather choice you to apply for another job. I might be your predestined mate, Arther. Nevertheless, don’t forget that I am your boss when it’s still time for work.” I push his hand hastily, “get out of my way,” I said seriously.
After all the words I said, I thought that my mind will be at ease. But, why do I feel shit right now? I keep glancing at where Arther is, I know that he won’t be able to see me through the glass that separates us but I still feel conscious that I might be wrong.Afraid lingered inside of me, what if he can see what I am doing? I can’t focus on my work as I just keep staring at the same line written on the paper I am holding. Even though the document on my screen is clean, I haven’t been able to write a single word for the meeting tomorrow. This is bad, this behavior of mine must stop by any means.I should not let myself affect again by the same person who makes me feel shit and miserable at that time, I shouldn’t care what he thinks about me now.Damn!I grab the phone in front of me and connect the line between us, he first glances into my office before he answers it. “Yes, Mr. Dan, what can I help you with?” He sounds more formal than earlier. I am asking him to do this, so why do
Art’s POVI want to tell him that I have nowhere to go and that we should eat together instead. However, who I am to say and do that? I almost punch myself to act like an asshole in front of another Alpha, I still ask myself why I interfere with their conversation as if I know something.Imagine that man smirking in front of me as if I deserve the answer, I receive from Dan. So, he is the reason why Dan stop clinging to the fated mate… He stops chasing me as if I am his world.“Good morning,” I greeted someone who stand beside the machine.She was shocked but immediately smile at me, “good morning, aren’t you the one who was the newly hired secretary of Mr. Dan?” She asks right away, luckily, she looks comfortable talking.“Well, yes.” I can’t help but feel shy all of sudden, maybe they also know everything…“Oh, I’m right. To be honest, everyone was shocked about the sudden change. We thought that it is only a prank or something but it was real, back then, Mr. Dan get angry whenever
Dan’s POVI lost my balance when he suddenly pushes me inside, I can feel his heavy breath on my neck. I was about to push him when his cold sharp teeth sink into the skin of my nape, “w-what are you doing, don’t bite me.” I felt a great terror.Only then did he let me go, I see how nervous and terrified he was looking at me, “did I mark you?” His voice is trembling, and so is his body is too. I want to punch him really hard right now, why does he have to let me see how he hates the idea of me, marked by him?“No, you don’t.” I shortly replied I have no reason to argue about it. Year by year I should know by now the answer but I keep ignore it, every time, whenever he’s in front me I lost everything even my sanity. “T-that’s good, that’s good.” He keeps repeating to himself as if he won’t forgive himself if he successfully marked me.I can’t help but scoff, “I will get the medicine you were talking about,” I said and stood straight. In this kind of situation, staying in a small space
Dan’s POV“Why you arrived so late? I thought you both are not busy with paper works today?” Her eyes stare at me and I immediately dodge. “And, why is look so flustered? Don’t tell me you both did something naughty before going here?”She giggles, though, she has a big issue when it comes to Arther; she always supports Rage to become my partner. I was about to speak when Rage chuckles, “you think of us like that, Cas, but your brother is always acting like a virgin woman.”I almost choke from my saliva, “w-what are you talking about?” I glare at Rage and immediately look at my sister, “and you, how can you ask something like that? We come here to eat so serve what we deserve!”Cas raises her eyebrows, “why to react so defensively?” She rolls her eyes and signs her hand to the waiter, without asking, they start putting the dishes on the table.“I’m not defensive, I just want you to stop talking about something like that in a public place.” I strongly said after the waiters left our ta
Dan’s POVBut that is only what I thought, soon I open the door of my office surprised by the strong scent lingering in every corner of the room.“W-what the fuck!” I shouts as I went inside to look for him, I’m the one who shot him the suppressant so why? “Art! Arther, where are you?” My voice trembling and even my hands felt so cold, why can’t see him in this small room!?“I-I’m here,” a weak voice said from the bathroom, he was there sitting on the cold floor with the shower on letting the water drip down to him. How looks so miserable…“Why are you there, please control your pheromones,” I said and step forward but he immediately glares at me to the point that surprises me.“Don’t come near me!” He shouts, and he looks and sounds so desperate. “I’m sorry, but please don’t come near me.” His voice trembling. I want to do what he wants, but I can’t help to be worried about him.Maybe this is the reason why Cas always tries to stop me from coming near to him, I always like this. No m
Dan’s POVEvery thrust of my hand inside of mine creates a lewd sound, it makes me feel regrets doing it in front of him. But I can’t stop now, my pride won’t let me…“Do you need help?” He asks without taking his eyes off me, staring at what I am doing. It gives a shiver down my body, this is the first time he looks at me giving all his attention.“I don’t need, just stay still!” I panic as he was about to touch me, I am not confident to keep my composure if he will help me prepare myself. I bend more my hips, trying to reach the deeper inside of me. “Ahh, damn!”Surprise, I look at him in disbelief. His finger slips inside me, “I’m sorry, but I don’t think I can wait for too long.” He shoves it with my fingers still inside, I can feel how stretched my hole is as he keeps thrusting it.“N-no, please stop for a second. Ah!” I ask him feeling embarrassed, but he acts like did not hear anything. His long finger started twirling inside, hitting the same spot.“Are you trying to break my
Rage’s POVI gracefully sat down in front of him, to be honest, I have no confidence to face him but I can’t say no when it comes to him. I put on the best smile I’ve been using whenever I do business, “how are you Alpha Duncan, it’s been a while since we last see each other.”He also smiles at me and put down the teacup he was holding, “everything is good to me, I’m glad that you accept my invitation to have lunch with me this time. I’ve heard about Cas that you and Dan have free time today, I’m sorry to disturb your time with my son.”I almost choke on my saliva, I really hate how smart the former leader of the Lotus pack is. “It’s really fine, Alpha Duncan, he has his sister to eat with him so nothing for me to worry about,” I reply shortly.“That’s good, that’s good. Well then, let’s order some food and I will start to discuss something with you.” He waves his hand to call a waiter, “please choose want you want, I don’t really have any idea want youngsters to love to eat these day
Rage’s POVAs if my sanity had gone and I become crazy, running and slamming his office door much as I can. I need to see him, I want to ease the uneasiness I have inside my chest. No, I can’t take it anymore if I saw him underneath that bastard.I grip my hands tightly, I think I can punch anything and anyone right now. I hate that there is another scent lingering here right now, this is not the place I used to love.I ready myself for the worst scenario I can think about, its scent becomes stronger as I open his office. “Dan, where are you?” I said firmly, biting my lips to suppress my anger. I don’t really understand what’s running into my mind right now, all I know is how eager I am to see him.“Why are you here?” His voice is hoarse, he just got out of the bathroom. He can’t look me in the eyes, well at least he knew that he did something that he can’t proudly ignore.“Where is he?” I sweep away his question and answer him with another question, “did he force you to do it?”“No,