"It was from the girl he first admired?" I asked at the back of my mind.
Hanggang ngayon ay hindi mapanatag ang loob ko about that bracelet. I am sure na nakita ko na somewhere ang bracelet na 'yon but I can't recall kung saan ko 'yon nakita.
Because of that, I'm starting to get curious about Dylan's personality. I shouldn't have thought about this, but, is he part of my past?
"What the hell, Magi? Ano'ng klaseng tanong 'yon? Of course not!" I shrieked as if I'm battling against my thoughts. Alright, I think I'm starting to go crazy because of these thoughts I have.
I go outside of my room to visit my Lola, siguro naman ay hindi pa siya tulog. I just want to check her condition para naman hindi na 'ko ma-bother nang sobr
"W-What? Uuwi ka na?" I stammered while asking him that question. Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ba 'ko sa ibinalita niya or not.[Bakit parang hindi ka yata masaya na uuwi na 'ko? That's how I feel, Love. Hindi mo ba ko na-miss?] I felt like he sounded grouchy.What am I thinking, huh? There's no need to have a second thought, instead I should be happy kasi he's finally coming home. Magkikita na kami ulit for almost a month of being away from each other.But I can't help myself from being anxious. I think hindi magandang idea na umuwi na si Eli kasi alam na nina Julia ang tungkol sa paired up niya with his ex. At natatakot din akong malaman ni Eli ang tungkol sa confidential deal namin ni Dylan.He shouldn't come home.
Note: The song lyrics included in this chapter are NOT COPYRIGHTED.---I immediately pushed Dylan away from me when I heard Eli speaking behind us.I looked at him and smiled. "He's just trying to tease me," lumingon ako kay Dylan to signal him na sakyan 'yong excuse ko."Oo, bro. Alam mo naman ako, mahilig akong mang-inis, 'di ba?"Eli nodded his head which I think he believed our excuse --- well, I hope so. I don't like to bring this little problem into a huge one 'cause I don't want our relationship to decrepitate."Let's go," sambit ko bago lumapit kay Eli and hasp my arms on him.
Nangangatog ang buo kong katawan habang unti-unting rumaragasa ang luha mula sa aking mga mata.I can feel that my teeth are trembling like hell when Eli turns his back to me. He didn't let me explain my side at basta niya na lang akong tinalikuran nang gano'n.He's so unfair!"Kawawa ka naman, Magi. How does it feel na talikuran ng lalaking pinakamamahal mo? Does it feel good?" Trisha just told me that while she's walking towards me. "You deserved that."I clenched my fist to hold back myself from slapping this trash. "Have you planned all of this?""Yes, everything is part of my plan. Inalam ko lahat ng tungkol sa iyo para kapag dumating ang araw na 'to ay mayroon akong ma
"Could you please explain to me what's the meaning of this?" Tinapangan ko ang pagkakatanong no'n dahilan para maagaw ko ang atensyon nila.Their reactions are the same as our reactions yesterday --- ito na ba ang karma ko? Just because Eli thought that I was cheating on him, then will he do the same?What a childish game."Magi, it's not what you think. Let me explain---""Now you feel how desperate I was yesterday pleading with you to hear my explanation. But what did you do? You walked away from me, disregarding the fact I held just to clear your mind." Tears are starting to fall on my eyes. "Nagpunta ko rito para makipag-ayos sa iyo, Eli. Pero ito pa 'yong dadatnan ko?"
I've decided na ipa-cremate ang labi ni Lola. In that way, I can still feel her presence beside me. Some of her ashes were filled in a jar and some of it ay inilagay ko sa maliit na jar na pendant sa kwintas ko.Manang Yolly and her company suggested na itabi ang jar, kung saan naroon ang ashes ni Lola, sa puntod ni Mama at ni Lolo. Kaya rin ako nag-iwan ng ashes para ilagay sa pendant ng kwintas ko, 'cause still I want to feel that my grandmother never leave me behind.Now, I was here in a cemetery upang ihatid sa huling hantungan ang kaawa-awa kong Lola. Together with some of our household workers and my friends na sina Julia kasama sina Dylan. At least for now, I didn't feel that I was all alone.Hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin lubos na matanggap ang nangyari. Parang kahapon lang ay
"What a joke!" I whispered.Agad akong bumaba sa tinutuntungan kong bleachers at hinayaan sina Julia at Delancy na maki-chismis doon. Akala ko naman kung sinong celebrity ang naroon, 'yong dalawa lang pala na ayokong-ayoko nang makita.Pinipilit ko sa sarili ko na isipin na hindi ako bitter. What's the reason para magpaka-bitter ako, 'di ba? It's not my loss if Eli chose that bitch over me. I shouldn't feel this way but --- yeah, medyo masakit para sa akin na makita silang magkasama. And worse... marinig ang balitang sila na ulit.Just like how I see both of them no'ng libing ng Lola ko, bagay na bagay silang dalawa. Hindi ko naman mapigilan 'yong sarili ko na mag-isip ng ganitong bagay at kainggitan na naman ang Trisha na 'yon.How m
Gustuhin ko man na iiwas ang tingin ko kay Eli ay hindi ko magawa. Gustuhin ko man na takasan ang mga tanong niya ngunit para akong na-estatwa sa aking kinatatayuan.I can't find the right word to say. What's clear in my mind is that I was startled when Eli totally found out about that confidential secret I used to hide from him.But the question is, how did he know?"I won't get any answer from you kung tititigan mo lang ako. Magi, I want the truth!" He raised his voice at me as a sign that he's slowly being irritated.I let out a heavy sigh. "All of that was true. Na-diagnosed si Lola na mayroong Alzheimer's disease at totoo rin na si Dylan ang kinikilala niyang apo.That'
"Best wishes sa kanila!" I faked a laugh, trying hard myself to sound normal. "No lies, they are perfectly matched for each other, 'di ba?"I bit my lower lip to prevent myself from crying. I was damn exhausted from crying, at sawang-sawa na ko.I pledged myself to not cry again from the same person but here I was, 'yong mga pesteng luha sa mata ko ay nagbabadya na namang tumulo."Mukha ngang totoo na proposal 'yon at karamihan talaga sa amin ay naniwalang totoo 'yon!"I came back to my senses when she told us that. What does she mean?"Taping lang daw 'yon, parte ng movie na ginagawa nila. Akala tuloy ng marami, e proposal na. Acting lang pala ang lahat." Natatawang sambit nito.