Tormented Ecstacy

There is one thing that I need to remind me while I am standing here and looking Trinity in the eye, it is why I am here. I am here to protect her and I cannot do that if I all I want is to be with her. When all I can think of is being in her arms, being locked into her body. I cannot protect her if I cannot stay away from her. I need to stay away and I need to keep my head clear.

So what do I fucking do?

I do the hardest thing, the very thing that I have been doing this whole goddamn day, and I push her once more away.

“Trinity, I can’t. This is for the best. You might not understand now, but please you will understand why.”

And WHAM, it hits her hard and god it hits me ever harder.

So as she makes her way back to her bedroom, the tears that have been threatening to consume my eyes and edge their way down my face come rolling with such great force. The raging anger that is suffocating every corner of my body lets loose like a bea