This side of Lucien is something I was very afraid of, something that shook me to my core.
With Lucien's threat James bolted up right, scrambling to his feet with a b-line for the door, grabbing the arm of his girlfriend and pulling her with him as they made their way out of my office.
My heart sunk in my chest. They had left me alone with a fuming Lucien.
I nervously met my eyes with his, eyes he had already pinned on me as he burned his daggered gaze deep into my skin.
His left hand clenched at his side whilst his other hand still held his gun aimed towards the door that my two guests had just left from.
Lucien was shaking, his rage so visible that his usual blue eyes had now looked a stormy grey with anger. Without so much as a warning he gripped my upper arm tightly, and with a tug he pulled me up and off my chair harshly.
"OWW LUCIEN, WHAT THE FUCK!" I yelled at the uncomfortable sting of a pain from his fingers being wrapped tightly around my skin.
"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING WITH THAT PIECE OF SHIT" He spat out clenching his jaw with an excessively repeating tick.
I averted my eyes to the ground at his scolding. Although we were now the only occupants of the room, I had felt humiliated, he was making me feel shame at my own judgement or lack thereof.
"Another bodyguard María? REALLY? THEIR NOT PAID TO FUCK YOU" He yelled directly into my face.
I felt so small, he was making me feel so little with his towering form, and demanding demeaner. I gulped visibly at the look of pure rage that still masked his face.
Although it wasn’t all in his delivery but in his words itself. They had cut me deep.
Hearing him say it like that had badly hurt.
Is that what he thinks of me? Does he think I sleep with all his men?
Because I don't. I never have.
The only time I let a man touch me, was now! In this room, right before he had barged his way in.
I tugged my arm back in an attempt at freeing myself from his firm hold.
To no avail, I failed without the slightest bit of release.
With no luck of removing myself from the situation and that disappointing look he was throwing at me was fuelling a rage of my own. He doesn't have any kind of right to be angry with me. We were no longer together. I was not his nor he mine, anymore.
"WHAT'S IT GOT TO DO WITH YOU?" I screamed losing control of the anger and damn right humiliation that had been pulled to the front of my emotions.
I felt so emotionally weak. It had felt like a whirlwind of so many different feelings and emotions wanting to be released all in one.
I took in a sharp breath, Willing my tears at bay. I was trying my hardest to not break down in front of him.
"I needed to teach that bitch a lesson" I ground through gritted teeth, my voice coming out was barely a whisper and in return Lucien looked down at me with a look I can only describe of as one of disgust.
"And what lesson is that princess? Huh? how to throw your pussy around to men it doesn't belong to?" He spat with a voice laced with definitive disgust.
With the way he was looking at me I wanted nothing more but for the ground to swallow me up. I wanted it to shield me from him, to save me from this whole humiliating situation I had put myself in.
Yeah, I was hurting, I was hurt by the words that came from his lips, but how else was I to prove my authority in this place? How else am I to do that? I had thought scaring people with their own fears would be the perfect solution. I needed to show that I can stand up for myself, that people can't treat me like shit because they have some deluded mindset that I can’t defend on my own.
My reality is that people think I'm weak. They think I'm weak because I don't get involved in the Valdez or Garcia run business, it’s not a choice I made of my own. My anger was boiling within me. He had no right; He has no right to be in here acting this way.
Using the hand that I had free from his hold, I balled my fist so tight and slammed it down against his chest with all my strength.
"GET OFF OF ME, YOU DON'T OWN ME LUCIEN" I screamed, becoming frantic.
It took a second and I had instantly regretted my actions as I was pushed with so much force that resulted in my back colliding with the wall behind me, enticing this burning pain to spread across my back.
I winced as He pressed his body firmly against mine, trapping me between the wall and dare I say it his warmth. Lucien has never acted this way with me before, He has never nor will he ever hurt me, or so I had thought.
Right now, I'm not so sure. I undoubtedly was quickly becoming terrified to the point that my body was trembling. In this moment right now, I was afraid of him, never in my twenty-five years of knowing him would I have ever thought that I would one day fear him.
Lucien restrained both of my arms tightly against my chest, forcing me still and rendering me incapable of escaping from his hold.
A whimper left my lips, my now aching back being pushed further into the wall behind me.
With the force he had used in slamming me to this god damn fucking wall I could only imagine that it was going to leave a bruise.
I'm not afraid of Lucien.
Lucien would never harm you.
He wouldn't! Not ever!... I mentally coached myself.
But who was I fooling? No one raises their voice to Lucien let alone punch his chest. No one betrays him in any type of way, like he now delusionally believes that I have.
I was afraid, scared of what his next actions would be. I didn't want to get caught up in his eyes and his intimidating stare. I was clueless, not knowing what to do in this situation.
so, I did the only thing I could and avoided eye contact, diverting my eyes with a turn of my head to the side.
My ribs were breaking with the pounding of my heart.
He was so close I could smell his cologne; I could feel his hard chest pressed against mine with every heavy breath he or I took.
If I wasn't so frightened of him in this moment, I would be admiring how handsome he really was and revelling in his close proximity that I had literally daydreamed about.
Lucien gripped my chin tightly between his fingers and thumb, roughly forcing my eyes to his. His stormy grey eyes searched my own, for what? I'm not sure.
They held anger but also… sadness, pain? Maybe I was overthinking it, Lucien doesn’t feel the same way towards me that I do of him. At least I didn’t think he did anymore.
I brushed that thought off turning my attention back to him as he dropped his hand from my chin, gently sliding a strand of my hair and tucking it behind my ear with his fingers.
I unwillingly bit my lip nervously as he Leaned in, his face merely a centimetre from my own.
"That's where you're wrong princess. I will find a way to ensure Everyone knows your mine. That's a promise María'' He whispered, his breath fanning the skin of my cheek and ear.
I shivered at his deep husky voice that somehow still made an appearance even in a whisper. How is it that I still have butterflies at his touch? How is that possible? How is it possible for me to still feel anything for this man standing in front of me when he is behaving in such a way? So impulsive. Even in a time like this, when he's so intimidating and threatening I still manage to care for him. I still Love him and that scared the living hell out of me. With Lucien's last words he let go of my arms, turning swiftly on his heels as he stormed out of the room without so much as a single glance back at me. The door slammed shut and I shakily slid down the wall to the floor not having the strength to to hold myself up any longer nor hold back my tears as I broke. I had no strength, I was in fact weak as my tears freely flowed and my sobs escaped loudly. What h
With three smooth steps Lucien closed the small distance between us. I stood my ground, my neck straightening as I looked up at him. With a soft press of his thumb, he slowly glided his soft touch down the length of my jaw as he took a hold of my chin between his thumb and finger, tilting my head and ever so gently guiding my eyes to his. I wasn’t sure if his actions were meant to be seductive but yet still, they enticed this need and almost drowsy like reaction from me. "I like seeing you blush, especially if I'm the one who causes it" He spoke softly looking down at me.he was fully aware of his effect on me and damn did he know how to the play with it. But thank the lords from the heavens above because before I had the time to respond, not even sure that I would have been able to, I heard the commotion of the other three behind me as they not so subtly jogged down the stairs. "Mor
I watched as she displayed her affection towards James, rubbing his arm and placing a kiss to his cheek before making her way towards the table that the other women were occupying. "Hey María" James greeted with a genuine smile. All it took was that simple greeting to turn each of the three women’s heads to our direction, not even one of them trying to hide the fact that they were watching and listening. I rolled my eyes at them, pouring myself a glass of the apple juice I had taken from the refrigerator. I was over it. What could I do? It was the same thing every day, day in and day out! Maybe one day it wouldn’t bother me as much as I let it now. "Let me guess, you will be my bodyguard for the meeting?" I bemused, but my voice was my betrayal as I really was not pleased with the idea. Don’t get me wrong James was actually a really nice guy, but to have someone follow you around against your will
The room was huge, there were probably around fifty to seventy members already inside, but we could possibly fit another hundred or so men in here.The tables and chairs were pushed to the sides as the men gathered directly in the centre of the room. I say men because I was literally the only female in this room right now. Roaming my eyes over the crowd I searched the room for any sign of the Garcia’s or my brothers. I strained my neck and leaned forward on the tips of my toes, it was extremely hard for a woman of a petite size like mine to see past the sea of many tall men but eventually My eyes landed on Lucien’s, a smile flicking at the corners of his lips. Relief washed over me at the site of him, he was unknowingly my comfort blanket and if there was any time that I had needed one it would be now. I made my way over to him, James clearing and guiding me through the crowd of men, I was not ashamed to admit that I would never suc
“Now take a fucking seat” I ground through my teeth. This time she didn't disobey quickly placing her ass to the chair with a whimper. This whole time James just looked dazed at the situation that was playing out in front of him, and I’m sure he was thinking of me as the crazy bitch he hates to protect. That thought wiped from my mind as I watched a small smirk tug at the corner of his lips and now, I was the one wondering if he was crazy. I turned my gun on him, the smirk dropping from his face as he covered it with a bite to his bottom lip. "You" I spoke as seductively as I could possibly muster up with the bucket of nerves I was beginning to feel. “Come here" I demanded Sitting down behind my desk and motioning for him to come to me. He bit his cheek in what looked to be an attempt in hiding his smile, I don’t know why but he was enjoying this way more than he should.
"Yo you alright man?" Diego asked patting my shoulder to snap me out of my thoughts.Throughout the meeting María looked sad, Distracted even.
María pull at her arm, trying to pull it from my tight hold.With no success it angered her as I watched her screw her face up
María's pov-I slid my back down the wall, my knees collapsing beneath me, My tears uncontrollably streaming down my face.