AUSTIN. After my conversation with my parents, I continued with my routine. I tried to shove off any thoughts of Lexi and David. But after I made sure all reports were turned over and necessary instructions were discussed with my team, I called it a night. Marshall offered his company if I needed one, but I declined. I knew he meant well, but with Lexi and David leaving tomorrow, I was hoping I could get to talk with her and see David a bit more. I walked on my way home, contemplating how I would approach Lexi or if I would knock on her door. The streets were empty, and the night wind was so cold that it brought chills down my spine. I was comfortable with the cold and never bothered with it until now. Probably because I knew that was how my heart felt at the moment. Alone and cold. I knew I did this to myself, but even if I kept saying I regretted all the actions I took in the past, there was no use for them anymore. I needed to move on and do better. But I had no idea how.
AUSTIN. I was delighted when Lexi confirmed that she needed my help to ease the pain in her breasts. My hormones surged, and I wanted to keep the momentum by showing her how good I was at handling David. Perhaps I could also have a chance to get laid tonight. “Can I hold him?” I asked. I almost grabbed David, but I remembered Mom telling me to surrender all rights to Lexi at the moment so she could feel she still had David. I smiled at her, but she was just looking at me with a poker face. So, I guess I was not allowed to do it. “It’s okay. I understand. I just thought I’d try.” I added. “Go ahead. Maybe he will fall asleep fast.” She said, and my brows hiked up. I didn’t say anything more, and I turned around to take David. His face lit up, dropping the bottle as he beamed at me, and excitement brewed within me. Lexi could see how I was doing so well and how much David liked me. “There you are, little furball. Daddy missed you today.” I said in a hushed tone as I slowly tur
AUSTIN. We stayed quiet while our son drank from her nipple with the milk I was dropping on it. By the time David fell asleep, his little hand was already curled around Lexi’s finger. I had also moved and sat beside her, my arm resting on the backrest of the couch, just a few inches from her shoulders, while I still held the bottle with my other hand. We might look like one perfect family from the outside, but Lexi wasn’t talking and was just looking at David. If I asked her a question, she would just answer but would never start a conversation anymore. As much as I wanted to talk more, I just kept quiet and let her enjoy her quiet time with him. I also took the time to look at her. She lost weight. Her cheeks were shallower, and her eyes looked tired. Of course, she just gave birth, and after the tricks I pulled, she probably was not able to sleep or eat at all. Yeah, what the fuck was I thinking at that time? But if I didn’t do that, would I have this moment? Probably not. S
AUSTIN. “Suck my breast, Austin,” Lexi said out of nowhere. Earlier, when she let me into the room, I was excited, and thoughts of getting laid were my main motivation. But after witnessing her struggle to pacify and breastfeed David, I couldn’t find myself having the same enthusiasm for the idea of sucking her boobs. Don’t get me wrong. I would still do it — in a heartbeat! However, I felt fucking guilty, knowing I might enjoy it while she was in miserable pain. “I had no idea how to do it.” I blurted out. Lexi chuckled softly before she began laughing, but there was no sound coming out of her throat. I just knew it because her body was shaking and bumping against mine. “What?” I asked. “If those words came from anyone, I might believe them, but not you.” She was still laughing, and I couldn’t help but smile. She was sarcastic with that remark, but it was fun to see her let loose for a while. “Come here and suck them, Austin, before I totally lose my mind. And just so you are
AUSTIN.After my conversation with Dad and after I fixed my office, I went back to the packhouse for breakfast. I still hadn’t made up my mind about where I should go after I was laid off. Either I moved to my parent’s home or I lived on my own.Or maybe I could move to Bernice City so I could be near Lexi and David. I guess anywhere, but not the packhouse anymore. Although I liked the possibility of being near Lexi and David if I moved to the city, my heart shattered at the idea that I had to leave the house that had been my only home throughout my entire life.I tried to look at the positive side of all this, but I couldn’t.All I wanted was to be a Gamma, but maybe without it, I could focus on being a good father and co-parenting with Lexi. But I had no idea how I would get out of the pain of losing my title and my responsibilities.I entered the packhouse, and I was not in the dining room yet when I bumped into two Omegas, each with a tray of food in their hands.“Where are you
LEXI. My hands were still trembling after I left the Elders’ hall in this building. Although all of them were nice and accommodating, I was more nervous about what my words would mean for Austin. I hated him with all my guts, but I didn’t want him removed from his post. I knew how hard he worked to be a Gamma, and I didn’t want it taken away from David if one day Austin or Colton decided to give it to him. So, I was careful with my words, and I might have lied a bit. But the thing about the meeting was that there wasn’t a jury yet. It was just a simple conversation, and I was asked if I wanted to file a complaint against him so they could take action. I assured them that there was no need for their involvement as we simply had a misunderstanding, and we would handle it between us. After seeing my son being well taken care of, I had no plans to actually call the police on Austin, despite my threat to him. I just wanted this to be a wake-up call for him, but I would never want him
AUSTIN. It had been a month since Lexi and David left the territory. As much as I wanted to follow or visit them more often, I was using the time to prepare everything before my suspension took place. Alpha Jace, together with Uncle Jake, Gavin, and Dad, decided to give me a suspension despite the case being trashed by the Elders. I requested it, as letting me off the hook didn’t seem right anymore after I realized all the emotional stress I had given Lexi. Especially because, despite that stress, she still stood up for me and saved me from being kicked out as a Gamma. So, any punishment for my act was welcomed wholeheartedly. I was given a six-month suspension with no pay. And once I get back, I will go back to my salary from when I started three years ago. I didn’t mind. I could start from scratch, and this was better than losing everything. I knew six months would be a long time, and I would surely miss doing my daily routine as well as managing my warriors, but a part of me
LEXI. Before I knew it, it had been a month since I gave birth. I was able to take David back to Bernice City, and the objection I thought would come from Austin didn’t happen. He just let us go. Dad Aaron and Mama Janna drove us home to Louise. But after two weeks, I was able to get the apartment that I used to have, and I moved in with my son. Again, Austin’s parents were there to help me, including buying furniture that David needed, but not him. But I could understand. Aside from the fact that I was not comfortable having him around, I knew he was busy preparing for his suspension. They gave him a six-month suspension without pay. It was a bit tough, but I guess that was better than being taken out as a Gamma. I only hope he learned his lesson because up until now, he was still questioning why I wasn’t letting him visit David alone. I knew I could be with him alone, but I couldn’t trust that he wouldn’t do what he did again. I guess the trauma of being left alone twice beca