Fenrer

CHAPTER 5

/ ZHASK /

My head hurt so bad it felt like it was going to explode. I could feel Greya trying to wake me up but I really needed to close my eyes for a while because the world seemed to be swirling around me.

“Fenrer… are you there?”

I called out to him but he was wailing in pain. He was suffering too.

“Fenrer, what’s happening?”

He didn’t answer though. His wails continued, as if he was in desperate need of help. But I had no idea what was going on. It felt like his voice were getting distant, as if he was moving far away. Then suddenly, I could no longer hear him. There was nothing at all.

“Fenrer, answer me! I’m losing you!”

But there was still no answer. Nothing. I could not feel his connection nor his bond. And I began to worry.

“No! Fenrer! Come back! Where are you?”

Still no answer. And for the first time in my life, I felt so alone. I was so used of hearing his voice in my head, his nags and his annoying opinions, but now that I could no longer hear him, it felt like something in my head shut down completely. And it felt… empty.

“H-hey …. You okay?”

I opened my eyes and saw Grey looking over to me with a worried looks on her face. I sat up on the bed and took deep breaths. My head didn’t hurt anymore but I felt devastated. What could have happened to Fenrer? Did he die? If he was gone, I didn’t think I would be able to shift. Well, this was the Mortal Realm after all, and I remembered how my dad told me we were powerless here. I doubt I could even shape shift here, but I didn’t expect I would lost my inner wolf’s connection. I wish he was fine. I missed him already. But I like to believe he would come back to me once we return to the kingdom.

“What happened?” Greya asked. She helped me sat up on the bed.

“I lost Fenrer,” I told her, almost in the verge of tears.

“Who’s Fenrer?” she asked, confused.

“He’s my wolf.”

“May he rest in peace,” she replied but I could still sense the sarcastic tone of her voice.

“He’s not dead, he’s just gone.”

“Oh, my apologies,” she said but I didn’t think she actually mean it. “Are you okay now? You need some medicine?”

“I’m fine,” I told her. I tried to get up, but the wounds in my back still hurt. It seemed like the pain levelled up after Fernrer was gone.

Greya gave me something to drink and handed me a tablet.

“Here. This will lessen the pain,” she said.

There was silence after I took the medicine she gave me. I was tired and worn-out and there was no energy left in my body anymore, so I tried to lean my head on her shoulder just like I always did back in the past when we were still living together. But to my surprise, she instantly moved away from me causing my body to fall back down on the bed. I guessed she didn’t like that anymore.

“Oh sorry,” she muttered, almost laughing at my poor situation. She stood up, ignoring me. Then she headed to the door, slightly opening it as she take a look outside.

“My parents are gonna be here for a while. I have to get back to my dorm but I can’t leave you here. Besides, you’re not strong enough yet,” she said, thinking.

I had no idea what she was going to do about me. But no matter what, I would not be leaving her side. I would keep her safe until the next full moon so we could go back to our home and live together again.

“I have to call my friend,” she went on. “I’m gonna need her help. Wait here.”

She went out of the room, leaving me alone again. For a moment, I thought she wasn’t going to come back but the door opened again and there she was…

“Guess what, I found a place for you to stay! Come, follow me!”

She led me outside and we sneaked away from her parents who were sitting in the living room.

“Mom! Dad! I’m going back to the dorm!” she shouted while we were approaching their driveway. I hopped after her, trying to distance myself just so they wouldn’t catch us together.

“Okay sweetheart! Bye!” her mom called back.

We cross the streets and walked at the side pavement, passing houses and shops. She led the way while I followed behind her. A few moments later, we stopped in front of a small, five story building.  

A car was approaching towards us.

“Hide over there,” she told me, pointing at a tree in a distance. I went towards it and stood there as I watched the car pulled over. A lady, probably the same age as her, got out embraced her. Then the lady gave her something, like some sort of keys, before she got back inside the car.

When the car left, I went back to her side and we both stared at the building in front of us.

“This is my friend’s apartment. She doesn’t live her so it’s empty for now. She said I could crash her for free. Come on, your room will be in the rooftop.”

I followed her through a flight of stairs and once we get there, there was an open space in front of the room where I would be staying.  And the view was beautiful. I could see the top of houses and their roofs and the streets from where I was standing. I was in awe.

“Do you like it?” she asked, looking at the view as well.

“I do.”

“Well, enough for the sight-seeing. Let’s get you some clothes to wear. And some groceries too. Follow me.”