“What are you thinking right now?” Oliver asks looking at me. I sigh and he smiles. He doesn’t want to know what I’m thinking right now. I don’t want to know what I’m thinking and I’m the one having the thoughts.
We’re finally done eating and sitting a little too comfortably on the mattress. He’s sitting so close to me his feet are touching mine. I can feel every inch of his skin on my thigh and let me just say that I am not having pure thoughts. The air up here has gotten a little colder but I feel hotter than I have ever been. My whole body is heating up.
I keep trying to move away from him but he keeps coming closer. If I move another inch I’ll end up on the concrete. I guess he wants to be near me, I don’t mind having him this close but I’m afraid of what might just happen if he gets even closer.
Kelly’s words rush into my head at that thought. I need to maintain the di
“I don’t know Kelly, we had an amazing time. I can’t believe how much fun we had.” I say and Kelly smiles looking at me. We have a free period and we decided to spend the next hour in the school garden. I feel like sitting in the cool breeze and smelling the roses. The garden is like my place of Zen now, I come here a lot.“Did you really? I know you were nervous about the date.” She says looking at me as we walk into the garden. I smile at how serene it is here. It’s silent and comfortable; I always find it odd that no one comes here to chill. This place is amazing there should be more students lazing around here.But it’s empty most of the time, you might find the odd person here or there but today is one of those days no one came to enjoy it’s beauty.“I was nervous, I thought we would fight and have a terrible time.” I say frowning. “But he was just so calm, present and fun. I don&
Text conversation between Ryo and Oliver Come outside for a minute Patient O I look at my phone screen and smile. I get out of bed so fast my brain shakes in my brain. “Whoa!” I say stopping in my tracks. My heart is beating over time and I have to brace on my bed to stop from falling. I need to slow down. I can’t let this boy drive me crazy like this. I saw his text and didn’t even think twice. Here he is making me act like some love sick puppy. I want to take things slow with him but he has so much pull over me I can’t help it. “What’s wrong?” My mother asks from the hallway. I didn’t think she would hear me. “Nothing.” I say standing up right. She pokes her head through the door with a look of concern on her face. “That didn’t sound like nothing.” She says and she raises her brows at me in question. “It’s nothing big I just got up too
“There he is.” My brother Felix exclaims excitedly as I walk through the kitchen backdoor. “I haven’t seen you in a minute. It’s weird because we live in the same house.” He adds opening his arms wide, asking for a hug. I look at him sideways because that’s very weird of him to want to hug me. I can’t remember the last time he and I embraced like that.He’s standing at the stove looking at me like he doesn’t recognize me. It hasn’t really been that long has it? I close the door and walk to the stove. I’m sure I have a stunned look on my face too. I don’t know how to take this behavior. I would ask but I don’t want to make it even more awkward than it already is.“I know you’re barely home these days.” I say going in for a hug. We embrace each other awkwardly. But neither of us pulls away, I don’t know what this is but I’ll go with it.“It
It’s been 24 hours since Oliver showed up at my house and I’m still thinking about him. I saw him at school today but I stayed far away from him. We were doing that awkward thing where we don’t know what to say to each other.I know I should be in the moment, pay attention to Trevor who is sitting in front of me smiling happily. He surprised me with an after school coffee date, I appreciate him being spontaneous and all but Oliver is running circles in my brain. I can’t stop thinking about what he said.I can’t believe he’s jealous of me and Trevor. I never thought him capable of jealousy. I thought his heart was made of steal and black coal. I didn’t imagine he had normal, human emotions. Okay I’m being dramatic but you know what I mean. I didn’t think he thought of me that way.His reaction to me dating other people makes me curious, I wonder if Trevor feels the same way. I want to ask him but I don&r
“You never told me how the dinner with mom went.” I say turning onto my back so I can get more comfortable. I look up at my ceiling listen to Oliver breathing slowly on the other end of the receiver. We’ve been on the phone for the last half an hour. It seems we can talk to each other better when we’re not face to face.“It went alright. They want to meet you.” He says and I choke on my spit and start coughing. Who says something so serious so casually? Meeting someone’s parents is a big deal, he knows how I feel about this.“Are you okay?” I hear him say after a series of agonizing coughs. A lot of spit went down the wrong pipe. I wipe tears from my face and sit up. This boy is trying to be the end of me.“No I’m not okay. How can you say something like that without warning?” I say when my throat finally clears up. I almost died from my own saliva.&ldq
“You’re okay?” Ryo asks glancing at me from the driver’s. She looks so content holding that steering wheel. I can tell she loves doing these random trips. She looks so happy right now, I wish I felt the same way. I smile at her but I can feel my face fighting me. I don’t like this at all. I don’t like not having control.“Yeah. I’m okay.” I say stopping my body from moving uncomfortably in my seat. I’m lying with my mouth but my body is telling the truth. We’ve been on the road for about an hour now and I haven’t been able to calm down. I keep stopping myself from checking the GPS. I have this constant feeling of wanting to know. I want to know everything.I want to know where in the hell we’re headed. The fact that I’m not driving is not helping at all. Ryo is a great driver and I feel safe. I’m just not used to being the one in control. I hate that
“So you’re really doing this huh?” Marlene says coming to stand closely behind me. I can feel her leg touch mine and it everything in me not to move. I look at her over my shoulder and smile. “You must be desperate to get some. You look pathetic you know, following that girl around.” She says and I laugh. I look at the line in front of me and sigh. I guess I’m going to have to live through this tedious conversation.I’m in line to buy the most amazing fries in my city. I would leave her here and not have to suffer through this but I really want those fries.“What are you talking about?” I say turning around to look at her properly.“I’m talking about you and that girl.” She says looking up at me. She smiles batting her eyes at me. I stare at her waiting for the usual excitement when she looks at me like that to kick in but there’s nothing.“W
“Have you talked to you her?” Jameson asks staring at me. I place the fries on a table in front of him and shake my head. I just said I don’t know if I should call Ryo right now. I’m not brave enough to deal with her anger. I can’t imagine what she has to say after seeing me with Marlene. That was huge fuck up, why did I let her touch me like that?“I just said…” I say and he shakes his head too.“Well, you should text her or something. You can’t let this whole thing simmer. The longer you delay the more time you give her to think.” She says reaching for the fries. I watch him enjoy every bite, wishing I had the same excitement. I was looking forward to eating these but I’m not so excited anymore.“I’ll talk to her, I’m just thinking.” I say and he frowns.“Was it really that bad?” Jameson asks after a beat.“It was that