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The rest of the day was a blur and I just put a game face on that at this point in my life I was so used to having a “game” face compared to how you felt. It was easy to do considering all the many awkward conversations I’d had to have in the past with coworkers, dates, and the hellish family day Mr. Johnson always put on twice a year. Having to explain to so many people so many times that it was just me and nobody else got easier and I was able to numb myself to a lot of things. My counselor always said it wasn’t healthy but it felt a hell of a lot healthier than crying all day long because if I looked at it, I was alone and had been this way for a very long time.

Nowadays it was easy to turn me on robotic and I learned a long time ago thanks to college speeches, work presentations, and the occasional work conversations I was able to do it without even thinking. That is why I’d always practiced every presentation so much that I could say and do it with no thought invol