Cleaning Up Susan's POV

I was surprised when Blake was so willing to give me Kate’s keys to her apartment but I was happy for the distraction. Kate was still in surgery and it was taking a bit longer than we’d all thought and I couldn’t stand being in that cold waiting room for one more minute. It gave me a different perspective to be in a waiting room desperate for information on a loved one's surgery and I made a note in my mind to not do that to anyone else.

The whole situation with Kate was maddening and my guilt was almost unbearable so I ended up practically begging Blake to allow me to go clean up Kate’s apartment. Blake tried to refuse but I told him it was more than most could bare to see the blood of their loved ones and nobody else should be in her apartment without her permission, plus I finally admitted I had to get out of there. I could not handle anymore the face of my parents or Mel. I know they weren’t purposely trying to give me faces but we all knew deep inside no matter ho